You sound like my brother,
Pea. Our parents are very religious; my ******* is a Methodist minister. We had no choice, growing up, but to learn the Christian religion. I accepted it with questions, and my brother repudiated it (he verbally mentions his atheism all the time.
I imagine there are a lot of inaccuracies or clarity in theological beliefs, as there are in creation vs evolution, and religion vs science, but the difference between us is that I've not closed either door for seeking the answers, and it sounds like you have. Scientists have now observed over 3 million galaxies (such as our MilkyWay), and I would love to know how all that came about. So I won't dare question your disbelief, but please don't question those that do believe that there's more to life than what science reveals. I was just trying to give
bbc_for_bday the best answer I could give.
The book of Revelations is just mind bending and definitely worth the reading & studying.