B Bull, welcome to B2W. Obviously you get some enjoyment out of your wife cucking you or you wouldn't be here. It's really ok to live in a state of denial, if it helps you cope with your wife's infidelity.
Whether you accept it or not, however, you are a cuckold. Any married man, who's wife has sex with other men, is by written definition a cuckold. If it bothers you, you could always sit her down and tell her to stop ... but then she'd cheat and do it anyways. So, you'll either continue accepting it or you won't, but she probably won't stop, and if she did, she'd be miserable and she would make your marriage miserable. Possibly you could open it up a bit and just let her bring her lovers to your home so both of you could enjoy it.
Mac
View attachment 470314 Denial is ok sometimes!