I was much happier and more content with myself both mentally and sexually before I found this website. After having a look through the site and some ir videos, it makes me feel near suicidal. I used to love the idea of me and a beautiful white girl having a wonderful life together. Now i can't help but to believe they would prefer a black male and would desire to have black children. This makes me feel both miserable and depressed for my future and the future of this world.