My fiancé and I discussed my desires years ago and since she had no interest, I haven't brought it up. It has been my own private fantasy. A week ago or so I started thinking about where we might be in 10 or 20 years. What kind of sexual fun we might be having. And I wondered if part of this black/white fantasy is about the freshness of someone new. Something new. After so many years of exploring each other and evolving sexually, is it possible that this stuff might be apart of our future. It's obviously hard to see the future, but I'd like to think it's still a possibility!