For me it was coz how I raised, I was raised by my aunt (dad's sister) , she was married at that time but also real cheater wife, she taught me how to obey to my man and be real submissive female and never say no to his orders, and coz she was into blacks, she was always teaching me the way to deal with black masters and how to worship them and always remember that I am suppose to be under them at any condition