So, my husband introduced me to this lifestyle, as he calls it. He said that it all started when we were first together and both of us were on and off . During the times he were broke up we both were messing around with others just being dumb back then until we finally settled down together and quit all the games. He tells me that he obsessed on the thought of what the guys I hooked up with, were doing to me. I never gave him details and I didn’t want to know details on the women he messed with , so I figured it was just in the past and that’s where it would stay. Boy was I wrong !!!
Okay, so what my husband told me is that he pictured me having sex with others and it turned him on thinking of me having amazing sex and oral with them and even kissing and touching . He said the thought of all that made him hard just sitting at work or in the car driving or at home . Then he said he wondered who specifically I was seeing and hooking up with and his imagination went straight to Black Men . Why I asked? He said he wasn’t entirely sure but when he thought about it he said it’s probably because of the skin contrast that makes white women stand out more in interracial ! He explained to me if I was with a black man , I would stand out greater and look more beautiful and hot! He said it’s like a spot light would be casted directly on me or something. He said he would search for women in porn with the same look as me , hair color , even tramp stamp and other tats that I have . Also he would search for women with the same body frame and age and hopefully facial features. He said he’d search for porn women with my look and when he’d find one he would then see if they had interracial scenes. if they did , he would masturbate to the scenes and look at it as me having sex with the black guy or guys as if it was really happening! He told me that he loves the way I ride so cowgirl position was his favorite to watch in interracial porn . Anything I like to do in sex would turn him on more , if the porn girl did it with the black guy. So this is how it started , he told me . This he secretly did during our entire relationship from the beginning he said! I had no idea!
Now!!! Okay so we’ve been together for 15 years and just recently this past couple of years he’s been telling me he wants to see me blacked . He explained that he’s been fantasizing about it for so long he almost needs it fulfilled at this point . Needs? He said it’s constantly on his mind ! He said it would be the greatest turn on of his life . And now he’s telling me that when we have sex that 100% of the time he is picturing me with a black man . He said that he’s picturing the black guy looking at me and fucking me and turned on by me . Seeing my white body glowing and intertwined with his dark ebony skin and him touching and sucking on my big white titties as they’re bouncing in his face . He said he pictures how a black guy will have to grab my heart shaped booty as he’s deep inside of me . he’s imaging how good my tight white Pussy must feel wrapped around his big black dick ! These are my husbands exact words btw!! Lol He said that he thinks of all that every second during sex with me. He also said that he notices black guys checking me out and holds on to every moment when they try to flirt with me or elevator eye me in public . Those thoughts are also floating in his head during sex . He even thinks of the future possible sex that I might be having with black men . He said this is all engraved in his mind 100% of the time and it’s the only way he can cum . He said that without these thoughts he absolutely cannot climax or ejaculate! So I’ve tried to help him reach his climax by talking dirty as if I was with a black man things I might say . Like I’ll say .” Fuck this white pussy !” I’ll say, nut up in this white pussy!” And. Very rarely I’ll say ,” I need Black dick “ when I talk this way in sex, he cums almost immediately, but when I don’t it takes him way longer cuz I guess he’s picturing me in interracial sex concentrating on it in order to cum.
Okay so that’s all it in a nutshell so my question and concerns are these:
I want him to want me for me sometimes ! Not just me with a black guy . I want him to be able to cum with just the thought of me ! Is this even possible at this point or do I have to fulfill his fantasy first to get him to think this way ? My other questions are these :
1.) If I don’t fulfill his fantasy will he always need those thoughts in order to be turned on ?
2.) why can’t he be turned on by just me without the fantasy of me with a black men ?
3.) what if I do fulfill his interracial fantasy ? What will happen ? Will things always be this way ? Will he still need to vision me with black men in order to cum ?
I lovely hubby and that’s never gonna change and I obviously accept him for him so I’m just trying to understand all this and get an idea how far I need to go or how things need to progress and what’s normal and what’s not?
Any help from experienced people in this lifestyle would be greatly appreciated
Okay, so what my husband told me is that he pictured me having sex with others and it turned him on thinking of me having amazing sex and oral with them and even kissing and touching . He said the thought of all that made him hard just sitting at work or in the car driving or at home . Then he said he wondered who specifically I was seeing and hooking up with and his imagination went straight to Black Men . Why I asked? He said he wasn’t entirely sure but when he thought about it he said it’s probably because of the skin contrast that makes white women stand out more in interracial ! He explained to me if I was with a black man , I would stand out greater and look more beautiful and hot! He said it’s like a spot light would be casted directly on me or something. He said he would search for women in porn with the same look as me , hair color , even tramp stamp and other tats that I have . Also he would search for women with the same body frame and age and hopefully facial features. He said he’d search for porn women with my look and when he’d find one he would then see if they had interracial scenes. if they did , he would masturbate to the scenes and look at it as me having sex with the black guy or guys as if it was really happening! He told me that he loves the way I ride so cowgirl position was his favorite to watch in interracial porn . Anything I like to do in sex would turn him on more , if the porn girl did it with the black guy. So this is how it started , he told me . This he secretly did during our entire relationship from the beginning he said! I had no idea!
Now!!! Okay so we’ve been together for 15 years and just recently this past couple of years he’s been telling me he wants to see me blacked . He explained that he’s been fantasizing about it for so long he almost needs it fulfilled at this point . Needs? He said it’s constantly on his mind ! He said it would be the greatest turn on of his life . And now he’s telling me that when we have sex that 100% of the time he is picturing me with a black man . He said that he’s picturing the black guy looking at me and fucking me and turned on by me . Seeing my white body glowing and intertwined with his dark ebony skin and him touching and sucking on my big white titties as they’re bouncing in his face . He said he pictures how a black guy will have to grab my heart shaped booty as he’s deep inside of me . he’s imaging how good my tight white Pussy must feel wrapped around his big black dick ! These are my husbands exact words btw!! Lol He said that he thinks of all that every second during sex with me. He also said that he notices black guys checking me out and holds on to every moment when they try to flirt with me or elevator eye me in public . Those thoughts are also floating in his head during sex . He even thinks of the future possible sex that I might be having with black men . He said this is all engraved in his mind 100% of the time and it’s the only way he can cum . He said that without these thoughts he absolutely cannot climax or ejaculate! So I’ve tried to help him reach his climax by talking dirty as if I was with a black man things I might say . Like I’ll say .” Fuck this white pussy !” I’ll say, nut up in this white pussy!” And. Very rarely I’ll say ,” I need Black dick “ when I talk this way in sex, he cums almost immediately, but when I don’t it takes him way longer cuz I guess he’s picturing me in interracial sex concentrating on it in order to cum.
Okay so that’s all it in a nutshell so my question and concerns are these:
I want him to want me for me sometimes ! Not just me with a black guy . I want him to be able to cum with just the thought of me ! Is this even possible at this point or do I have to fulfill his fantasy first to get him to think this way ? My other questions are these :
1.) If I don’t fulfill his fantasy will he always need those thoughts in order to be turned on ?
2.) why can’t he be turned on by just me without the fantasy of me with a black men ?
3.) what if I do fulfill his interracial fantasy ? What will happen ? Will things always be this way ? Will he still need to vision me with black men in order to cum ?
I lovely hubby and that’s never gonna change and I obviously accept him for him so I’m just trying to understand all this and get an idea how far I need to go or how things need to progress and what’s normal and what’s not?
Any help from experienced people in this lifestyle would be greatly appreciated
