The more and more I think about the more and more I just don't understand myself. Despite my very powerful desire to cuckold my husband with a huge Black cocked man straight from Africa. I'm also very conflicted about it. On the one hand my white husband is horribly inadequate in bed. He's like a washing machine. A few pumps and he's done. No foreplay. No passion. Absolutely no depth inside me. At the same time, I feel very guilty about my desire for Black men, and Black breeding. While I feel incredibly turned on by the thought of having a black baby in my womb, and utterly humiliating my inadequate husband, I also feel guilt about it. Is there a way to make the guilt and confliction go away and just be the totally free empower women I feel I am?