Differences in our individual perspectives sometimes means that Lisa and I see some things differently,especially after some passage of time. That point is more evident in our separate views about the first couple of years after leaving Germany than in any other period of time.
My procrastinating in getting my request for an extension in Germany and the resulting denial was what completely upended our plans for the future and Lisa was extremely disappointed. She tried not to blame me,but still....A lot had happened during our time in Germany. There had been some challenges,but almost everything had turned positive going into the last year and Lisa was as happy as she could be.
There was a lot going on during that time. Lisa's sexual and maternal yearnings were coming into alignment for her. She was able to fantasize about her future as never before and had definite ideas of what she wanted life to be like going forward. She was approaching a full decade of having sex primarily with black men and having some of the best and most frequent sex of her life.
Lisa's maternal inclinations and experiences to that point had been a roller coaster. Her first confirmed pregnancy ended in miscarriage and she'd had several more,but she'd finally found a doctor who was able to understand her issues and help her to carry to term and deliver our kid. Lisa was counting on that doctor to come through for her for the next two,and both would be fathered by black men. The emotional impact on Lisa when our extension to remain in Germany was denied destroyed her dream of her perfect family.
I was already thinking that I would probably leave the Army when my enlistment was finished and that was another concern for Lisa. Albeit modest as income goes in the enlisted ranks,there's a sense of security within military families. I'll mention another factor that was in play that we didn't fully appreciate and didn't think of in these terms,but Lisa was absolutely addicted to black cock. It's not unrealistic to surmise that she looked to the entire black male population of the Army as her source for sex.
Back in the states,Lisa's mood wasn't the best. There was chaos all around and I wasn't there to help as much as I had before. Feeling that she was behind in getting the education she would need once we were out of the Army,she dove into classes,taking on a bigger load than she should've. That fact and baby care drove Lisa to turn to other women for support. They were most,but not all Army wives and Bonnie was one of the group that Lisa bonded with.
There's no doubt that Lisa had it made in the latter days in Germany. Everything was as near perfect as it could've been. She got as much sex as she wanted and never had to sleep alone. That's a huge deal for Lisa. She's never liked to sleep alone. During her time with Victor,Curt,and those guys,Lisa was either in bed with them or someone was in our bed with her.
Here's where Lisa and I recall the return to the states differently. She remembers a void for weeks or months that I don't remember happening. Men were hitting on her constantly,and they were always black men. Although we were at one of the smaller posts in the states,it was still much bigger than the kaserne in Germany. The Army's one of the largest organizations on earth,but it gets smaller the longer you're in it and Lisa's reputation had followed her to the states via some people who knew her from Germany. In addition to that,after a short time there another soldier began talking her up to black men on a regular basis. Neither Lisa,Bonnie,or I ever understood his motivation,but that guy was Bonnie's hubby,Jimmy.
Lisa and Bonnie became really close,teaming up to get things done and care for the ******* and sleeping together every chance they had. I was out for weeks at a time again and Jimmy caught overnight duty occasionally. Jimmy was obviously capable of producing offspring,but according to Bonnie he was otherwise useless in bed. Lisa brought Bonnie to her first real full-fledged orgasm.