Well, I have always been a strong individual personally and physically and I always consider the act of one male sucking another male's penis to be gay. I also thought that 'cuckolding' was something that was 'erotic', but not real. After my wife Janet and I were married I encouraged her to have sex with another man. I encouraged to have sex with another guy so I could enjoy watching and get really turned on. I didn't say a black man and I didn't think about a black man. But as fate would have it one night at a club it happened. 'He Likes to Watch Me Dance'...google it, Janet and I wrote it and it's true, you'll understand. You see, some people really do live their fantasies and turm them into realities. This took five years and it will never happen overnight.
I thought I was a strong individual with a strong personality, but today I'm a cuckold. I no longer fight it because I always come running back for more like a smoker who is addicted to nicotene. I shave my wife's pussy in the bathtub, paint her toenails in the bedroom, and solicit attractive, discrete, well-endowed black men for her, every where I can unobtrusively. I gave up on being a strong individual and while I'm successful at work; my wife is in control at home and I like it that way. I'm not a sissy, I don't wear a dress or act as if I were effeminate or in some other perverted manner. I do swallow my own semen and I have for years and I do suck black cock when Janet requests I do so, which is with every new black guy whom she is with.I don't consider that to be gay.
Think about it...it's a real turn on to a black man for a white husband to be sucking his cock knowing that in a short while his cock is going to be pleasuring his wife. It's so humiliating that it's a turn on. The black man knows he can do whatever he wishes to the wife and her husband is broken.