My husband is very into cuckolding, *editing for context since so many people seem to be slut shaming: I'm not a BBC-loving whore. I started doing this because my husband begged me to, and I always did it WITH him. I do not have black bulls, boyfriends, or anyone who I fuck behind his back. I don't cheat. I don't text men unless he's there asking me to do it. It is 1000% HIS KINK and something I always did for his enjoyment and pleasure. Me, personally, I'd rather have a partner who wants to keep exploring each other rather than having sex with strangers, but to each their own. **
But, for the past year he has lost interest in me sexually. It's crazy because my body is better than it has ever been. I'm the same loyal wife. Everything I do sexually has always been WITH him. But now, my husband has become engrossed in porn (both gay porn and straight porn) and now I have realized he's texted with several exes -- one of whom he even suggested they could still "fuck around" if she wants to. He's not randomly talking to strangers -- he's actually trying to rekindle old sexual relationships. Obv when I found that out, I have no idea how long this has gone on or if he's actually been cheating the entire time.
A long time ago I caught him sending texts like that to another woman and I thought he had stopped. (His excuse was that he was never going to act on it and was just flirting to get attention.) Now I feel very stupid and overlooked, because it appears he is interested in trying to rekindle things with all these woman of the past, meanwhile ignoring me entirely. (It's worth saying that I'm hotter than any of these other women... it's not like any of them are knockouts. Many of his exes I have met in person and they were underwhelming... I could understand if it was some knockout he couldn't get over, but that's not it. Instead, it just seems like he's an unavailable coward who wants sexual attention from everyone who has left and wants to give none to the person he's with. Maybe narcissism? Or maybe he just has so much insecurity that he's hopeless.
We aren't legally married. I am considering leaving. Part of me has the urge to have an affair. Not just a hookup or cuck sex but actually a full fledged affair. Not sure why I'm leaning in that direction.
I was only into cuckolding when I felt my husband was really into me. It's not exciting if you're doing it with someone who is bored of you and always looking in the other direction for attention.
But, for the past year he has lost interest in me sexually. It's crazy because my body is better than it has ever been. I'm the same loyal wife. Everything I do sexually has always been WITH him. But now, my husband has become engrossed in porn (both gay porn and straight porn) and now I have realized he's texted with several exes -- one of whom he even suggested they could still "fuck around" if she wants to. He's not randomly talking to strangers -- he's actually trying to rekindle old sexual relationships. Obv when I found that out, I have no idea how long this has gone on or if he's actually been cheating the entire time.
A long time ago I caught him sending texts like that to another woman and I thought he had stopped. (His excuse was that he was never going to act on it and was just flirting to get attention.) Now I feel very stupid and overlooked, because it appears he is interested in trying to rekindle things with all these woman of the past, meanwhile ignoring me entirely. (It's worth saying that I'm hotter than any of these other women... it's not like any of them are knockouts. Many of his exes I have met in person and they were underwhelming... I could understand if it was some knockout he couldn't get over, but that's not it. Instead, it just seems like he's an unavailable coward who wants sexual attention from everyone who has left and wants to give none to the person he's with. Maybe narcissism? Or maybe he just has so much insecurity that he's hopeless.
We aren't legally married. I am considering leaving. Part of me has the urge to have an affair. Not just a hookup or cuck sex but actually a full fledged affair. Not sure why I'm leaning in that direction.
I was only into cuckolding when I felt my husband was really into me. It's not exciting if you're doing it with someone who is bored of you and always looking in the other direction for attention.
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