Hey, I'm Erica.
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paul28msingle
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Oh yeah a black dick would make you cum so hard you would tremble and quiver with your eyes rolled back in your head.
Well I have going out and staying in options so it depends lolWhat would you wear?
No haha going out outfits are like dresses and staying in is more casual. lmao. I don't have "explicit" outfits.
I don't know about all that... it took a lot to just make this post and admit to fantasizing.
Let the imagination run wild!
Hey, I didn’t plan on posting on here but I’ve gotten a few messages so I felt like I should introduce myself and say why I am here and answer some of the common questions I am getting to avoid disappointing people further lol.
I am Erica (my real name) and I am 21 (about to be 22!) My pfp is really a picture of me… I wasn’t going to do that at first but tbh it was kind of exhilarating to hitting upload. Idk why, lol.
I have been in a serious relationship with my boyfriend for almost 2.5 years. He is white like me and is unaware that I am on here. TBH we don't talk about anything like this.
I have only ever had 2 sexual partners — both were white — one was my HS bf and the other is my current bf. I am not wild and never have been so my s*x life will probably be veryyy boring to you.
To start off — this type of thing is really new to me and I came here to just explore from the “safety” of my computer after some recent stuff has left me kind’ve… curious I guess? And confused. idk.
So, to be clear I have zero experience and am not exactly seeking to gain any experience (yet?)
I have never fantasized about black guys and have never really watched porn or anything. I am not "this" kind of person usually so I don't want to lead anybody on or make you think otherwisee.
What happened was, around a month ago, I was doing some modeling for a photographer friend of mine (see PFP lol) — I just do it occasionally and mostly for the fun of it and a little extra cash. It is usually just styled shoots or clothing/swimwear. I have known him and worked with him since I was really young so it's nothing wild.
Anyways, around a month ago he called me super last minute to help him with a shoot and model and during that all the male models on the shoot were black men. I ended up overhearing them talking — in explicit detail — about wanting to “F*** the white girl” and saying all sorts of crazy sexual stuff.
I was kind’ve offended at first (i think?) if I am being honest. But later that night I basically had a sexual fantasy and they have been reoccurring just about every night since that day. Just different versions of dreams where I am around my boyfriend/my family/his family/my friends and there is this black guy that keeps flirting with me and trying to get me to sneak off with him and I like make random excuses to go to my room or outside and somehow he follows me and we start making out and he like takes my clothes off or just moves them out of the way and it is like he is just about to penetrate me for sex and then I ALWAYS wake up right at that point and am usually sweating like crazy with my heart racing and have to m*sturb*te just to get my heart to calm down so that I can fall back asleep.
It is SO WEIRD and confusing tbh… because I have never in my life had sex dreams really and definitely not so vivid.
Then on Wednesday (a few days ago) I did another photoshoot with my friend and a couple of the guys from a month ago were there so it was 3 of them and me and my photog friend and we were driving around out in the country for pictures. So there wasn’t a lot of privacy for changing or anything and I ended up having a (minor) wardrobe malfunction and flashed my butt several times because of wind really and so there were more comments made but this time to my face.
At the end of that I got a text from one of the guys (who got my # from the photog) asking if I wanted to go get drinks and hangout.
I didn’t respond that night and didn’t go but he and another one of the guys have texted me a few times since then…
But ever since Wednesday, it is like I keep thinking about what I am dreaming about and THIS stuff… so I am just trying to figure out what is going on in my head and everything from the safety of being alone on my computer lol
Which is why I came here because I thought the forum might be insightful… but I have kind’ve been afraid to explore too much.
So, I don’t have a previous interest in any of this, no experience, and no plans… just some curiosity and frustrating dreams and thoughts that I can’t make g
If you want it go for it, you aren't married
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Welcome Erica. Nice to meet you. Well we are here and this website is a great place to express desires
I'd say try it I talked my last girlfriend into fucking a black man it took a year but she came home and was all google eyed and she was wet and slightly loose from his large cock I loved making out with her knowing he had her earlier
Take baby steps....start with a black dildo. It isn't cheating and it will give you a preview of what you may be missing.
I would love to see some pics of what your considering wearingI didn't answer him that night but answer the next day and just said it was nice to meet with him and work with him. He has texted a few more times asking to get together but I have kind've used work as an excuse. He actually texted me like 2 hours ago too
HONESTLY? I really don't know. Even if there was no chance of getting caught... I still would know I was cheating and that is something I didn't think I could ever do. Honestly, everything is just confusing.
My 100% real honest answer RIGHT NOW (my feelings could change in 30 seconds) is in an "ideal world where I would never get caught and there is a 0% chance of anyone ever finding out" ... I would meet up with him and just see where things went. I wouldn't go there with the intent to do more than just meet and hang out... but I would probably spend 8 hours deciding what to wear and make sure everything was thoroughly waxed and manicured.
Well that isn't entirely true because I already spent yesterday and today think about what I would wear so it would only take me like an hour.
One of my exes dated black guys and I was eating her out after the coupling. Privileges for adventurous woman in 2023 are all there, use them (if you want oc)
Please share
Too bad
So first I'd start with guaging your boyfriends potential in interest in this. Raise hypotheticals and see how he responds. He might be into this. If he shows some interest, try a toy.
Be open with your man, no need to kick him to thr curb for a kirk you've found yourself into.
If you need a time to bring up some version of the idea, do it during pillow talk
Be open with your man, no need to kick him to thr curb for a kirk you've found yourself into.
If you need a time to bring up some version of the idea, do it during pillow talk
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That’s a great idea about a black dildo. There’s lots of realistic ones too, where they’ve gotten a mold from a real black guy, usually a porn star. Then it will look like the actual thing.
I have thought about doing this and almost ordered one but idk if an inanimate object would really "do" it for me. I feel like I need more mental stimulation than physical stimulation and a piece of plastic doesn't do either for me? Not that I have ever tried it just seems that way.
I know him well enough to know that he wouldn't "respond" well to any hypotheticals.
I explained this to someone somewhere else but he wrestles with wanting to have sex and thinking we should wait until marriage and so in the past when I have talked about wanting more or needing more or talked about any kind of changes to the sporadically little sex we have now he usually just immediately goes to "then we should stop until we are married. this is just proof we should wait" and then it is 2-3 months before he backs off of that stance.
We have never had pillow talk lol (and we don't live together) So lots of difficulties trying any of this.
