Anyone want to comment on the subject of getting turned on by the knowledge that they are unusually under-endowed? I knew for quite some time that my penis was not even average sized, but it took one event to realize that I wasexcited by the fact that I am too small to properly satisfy a woman. I had been sharing fantacies with my wife of her having sex with other men, especially black men. She had also been teasing me about a black guy at her gym who couldn't take his eyes off her. One night she was unusually aggressive and told me to lay down, pulled off my pants and grabbed a ruler to measure me.I could see that it was showing a bit over 4" and she kept telling me to get bigger as she rubbed me. As soon as the thought entered my mind of her relization that I was too small for her, I instantly exploded. At that point it opened her eyes to how easily I could be manipulated by her and I think it was at that moment that she decided to see what her black admirer could offer. I later found out that after making out in our car with him she had no ability to rsist him and let him fuck her right there in the back seat of our SUV!! Still cant belive my petite propper wife let a black man cum inside her in a public place no less!! Since then my wife has told me she is additcted to the pleasure that black men give her and done such a good job training me that now I get more excited hearing her tell me how tiny I am than any thought of actually pleasuring her. Its like my body has accepted my limitations and iam fulfilled by knoing I am too small to have real sex. I now enjoy it the most seeing my fife preparing herself for a night, or weekend away with her boyfriend, or hearing the smallest detail of what he has done to her. My Aviar is a picture my wife took of me to allow me to see how small I am compared to her black lover. She sent me my pic, but wouldn't send her stud's pic. She only showed it to me as she smirked at how I squirmed with desire for release. This is hard to put into words, but does anyone have any similar experiences. I never imagined I would enjoy my penis exploding at the thought of my inadequacy more than real sex! I'm new to this site and feel strange sharing this admission.