Exactly my point. Black youths and rappers use it hundreds of times a day and no one blinks an eye, yet when someone else (usually) white uses it (not in an insulting way, but with some type of context to it, such as singing the lyrics to a tune and getting lost in the tune), watch the outcry and transition into professional victim mode, ironically from that section of blacks who probably use the word the most.
Nope. You'll never understand at all and it's ok. Your white forefathers, took a very honorable and ancient term used to refer to Gods and Royalty and perversed it making it derogatory, like everything the males do! Who came up with the term Rice Ns & Sand Ns? My point exactly.