Does anyone else here suffer from depression issues?
I'm on the autism spectrum (currently diagnosed as Pervasive Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Diagnosed) and I suffer from regular depression seemingly in a cycle. It will go away and come back.. Currently despite having just gotten a new 5 month old pit mix puppy 5 days ago, after our 14 year old pit died on January 4th.. I'm really low. On one hand she's really smart (knows to sit and wait for us to clean her paws after she goes out even) but she still is young and doesn't always listen to me.
At first her being here seemed like it fixed the funk in the house that came from not having a dog for the first time in my life... but now I'm just as depressed if not more so than before we got her. Granted at the same time I'm not feeling the best physically because my stomach is acting up again despite constantly feeling bloated.. and I also have Chiari 1 Malformation (brain/skull birth defect, my brain hangs out of my skull 6mm) and it seems like my head has been really twitchy for a couple days now..
I know the biggest source of my depression is just my constant loneliness. I'm 33 and I've never even been out on a date.. Thanks to my ASD, I've never learned how to notice if a woman is interested in me. I rarely (only happened twice.. in person) find women I can't stop thinking about, and can't do casual stuff because again; no clue how and too easily attached when someone does seem to like me. I really know nothing about dating or anyone being interested in me, I don't understand it at all..
It's why I've opened myself up to the idea of dating any race woman.. I can't afford to be picky, if a woman wants to give me a shot, I need to take the chance, so long as she's not abusive or as heavy as me or something.
I guess I'm just looking for someone to talk to and maybe to commiserate with someone else that has had to deal with it.
I'm on the autism spectrum (currently diagnosed as Pervasive Personality Disorder Not Otherwise Diagnosed) and I suffer from regular depression seemingly in a cycle. It will go away and come back.. Currently despite having just gotten a new 5 month old pit mix puppy 5 days ago, after our 14 year old pit died on January 4th.. I'm really low. On one hand she's really smart (knows to sit and wait for us to clean her paws after she goes out even) but she still is young and doesn't always listen to me.
At first her being here seemed like it fixed the funk in the house that came from not having a dog for the first time in my life... but now I'm just as depressed if not more so than before we got her. Granted at the same time I'm not feeling the best physically because my stomach is acting up again despite constantly feeling bloated.. and I also have Chiari 1 Malformation (brain/skull birth defect, my brain hangs out of my skull 6mm) and it seems like my head has been really twitchy for a couple days now..
I know the biggest source of my depression is just my constant loneliness. I'm 33 and I've never even been out on a date.. Thanks to my ASD, I've never learned how to notice if a woman is interested in me. I rarely (only happened twice.. in person) find women I can't stop thinking about, and can't do casual stuff because again; no clue how and too easily attached when someone does seem to like me. I really know nothing about dating or anyone being interested in me, I don't understand it at all..
It's why I've opened myself up to the idea of dating any race woman.. I can't afford to be picky, if a woman wants to give me a shot, I need to take the chance, so long as she's not abusive or as heavy as me or something.
I guess I'm just looking for someone to talk to and maybe to commiserate with someone else that has had to deal with it.
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