iraddiction
Female
So I’m creating this thread to find out what other women have experienced when there relationship has had a breakdown and both partners mutually agree to part ways for an indefinite period of time to work on themselves.
In my situation we were in a loving relationship for 6 years but gradually lost communication and generally lost our connection and spark also. We began dating in our early 20’s, we both had only experienced a couple of sexual partners beforehand and to be honest for myself they had all been very very average lovers. My partner was loving and gentle and I enjoyed sex with him because of the intimacy. He wasn’t well endowed, rather average but it got the job done. I don’t mean to bad mouth him at all and this isn’t a humiliation post to belittle him.
Now back to the original point of the post, we had lost connection and we decided to part ways for our own sake, to experience life and regain that zest for life and come back to each other refreshed and reinvigorated. To add a breathe of life to our relationship so to speak.
This was working out well for me personally, I picked up hobbies and spent more time with friends which naturally meant going out for drinks and having fun with the girls, dancing and having honest clean fun. But one particular night we were clubbing and temptation crept in as there was a really handsome black man that was showing interest in me. He was polar opposites to my partner. He was tall, muscular, athletic, deep voice, oozed confidence and I generally got the vibe that when he set his mind on something he was going to accomplish it. Drinks led to conversation which led to the dance floor and next thing I know I’m in his apartment not making love but being used like a piece of meat. I was used to 7-8 minutes sessions including foreplay but this went on for an hour the first session. Again at 4am in the morning and 1pm the following afternoon. After that experience I was hooked to say the least. I went back in 2 days time. I couldn’t get enough. My pussy was thinking for me and I couldn’t help it. I felt so guilty because of my partner and that I was doing this unbeknownst to him. In hindsight we should have set clear boundaries about hooking up with other people. But it was too late now. I felt like I had opened a whole new door to sex and I was diving in head first with no thought, no rationality, no morals. I was taking risks with unprotected sex, letting strange men cum in me, looking for gangbangs etc.
It was clear to me that there was no going back to my ex properly. Not the way we were before. I loved the loving caring side of things but from this point on, mediocre sex was not going to completely cut it.
So there is my situation, I would like to hear from other women who have been in a similar situation and what their experiences were. Also would like advice on dealing with the guilt and how do you rationalise your behaviour and overcome it. Tips on creating a healthy balance for the lifestyle would be great too.
In my situation we were in a loving relationship for 6 years but gradually lost communication and generally lost our connection and spark also. We began dating in our early 20’s, we both had only experienced a couple of sexual partners beforehand and to be honest for myself they had all been very very average lovers. My partner was loving and gentle and I enjoyed sex with him because of the intimacy. He wasn’t well endowed, rather average but it got the job done. I don’t mean to bad mouth him at all and this isn’t a humiliation post to belittle him.
Now back to the original point of the post, we had lost connection and we decided to part ways for our own sake, to experience life and regain that zest for life and come back to each other refreshed and reinvigorated. To add a breathe of life to our relationship so to speak.
This was working out well for me personally, I picked up hobbies and spent more time with friends which naturally meant going out for drinks and having fun with the girls, dancing and having honest clean fun. But one particular night we were clubbing and temptation crept in as there was a really handsome black man that was showing interest in me. He was polar opposites to my partner. He was tall, muscular, athletic, deep voice, oozed confidence and I generally got the vibe that when he set his mind on something he was going to accomplish it. Drinks led to conversation which led to the dance floor and next thing I know I’m in his apartment not making love but being used like a piece of meat. I was used to 7-8 minutes sessions including foreplay but this went on for an hour the first session. Again at 4am in the morning and 1pm the following afternoon. After that experience I was hooked to say the least. I went back in 2 days time. I couldn’t get enough. My pussy was thinking for me and I couldn’t help it. I felt so guilty because of my partner and that I was doing this unbeknownst to him. In hindsight we should have set clear boundaries about hooking up with other people. But it was too late now. I felt like I had opened a whole new door to sex and I was diving in head first with no thought, no rationality, no morals. I was taking risks with unprotected sex, letting strange men cum in me, looking for gangbangs etc.
It was clear to me that there was no going back to my ex properly. Not the way we were before. I loved the loving caring side of things but from this point on, mediocre sex was not going to completely cut it.
So there is my situation, I would like to hear from other women who have been in a similar situation and what their experiences were. Also would like advice on dealing with the guilt and how do you rationalise your behaviour and overcome it. Tips on creating a healthy balance for the lifestyle would be great too.
