I am a 37 year old male married to a very sexy woman. Our vanilla sex life dried up some time ago due to my lack of size and her lack of interest. It seems that every time we go out we see couples that involve a white woman and a black man. My wife has made a number of comments and they have all been positive. To my surprise I found myself turned on by thoughts of her with another man. I finally asked her if she thought any of these women were married that we had been seeing. She then pointed out a number of wedding rings to me. She said many of these couples were probably married to each other but many were not. She asked me once how I felt about that and I noticed a smile as she was teasing me. I told her that I thought it was all OK as long as everybody agreed to what was going on. The past year has been one of the two of us talking from time to time as above. The sex life has been me going down on her only. I began looking up some things and have been drawn to cuckolding sites. Finally I came across this site and was really excited about some of the posts and pictures. I read the posts about advice, especially the latest by Jibstar and vowed to try it. I asked my wife if I could get some porno for us to watch and she said OK. She is not turned on by this kind of stuff as a rule but all of the porno I got was black male, white woman stuff. She watched without comment but seemingly studied things. Finally after a few evenings she laughed and asked me what was up. I told her that I felt the best sex tapes came from black men. Her response to me was that maybe that was because they were the best men. I was floored when she said that as I had never known she had those kind of thoughts. I finally told her two weeks ago that I wanted to admit to her that I was inadequate in the man department and that I felt it would be healthy for our marriage for her to consider dating and sleeping with other men. She was upset about this and seemed to think it was because I wanted to cheat. I have spent the last week reassuring her that this was not the case. She finally settled down and a couple of nights ago brought the subject up on her own. She said she would maybe consider it but that if something happened she wanted my promise that I would not play the blame game. I promised repeatedly that I would not. She then told me that if anything happened that she would be the one to pick the man. I then told her that I was ok with that but that part of me hoped that the man would be black. This sparked a response form her that this was me trying to control her choices and so forth. I finally asked her why she did not want to be with a black man and her response was "Who said I did not. I was talking about you wanting me to be with a man and then trying to tell me which man. To be with a black man. That would be a dream for most white women. But look at numbers. There are a lot more white women then black men and I doubt they would be interested in me." Now my wife is on the thin side, blonde with bouncy breasts and very pretty. I told her that I did not know where the insecurity came from. She told me she did not know either but that maybe the whole idea was crazy. She asked me why I was so interested in black men and I really had no answer to that. She said that she thought I should think about that and be able to come up with some answers. I am writing for some serious advice. My wife does not know how to dress or act or where to go. She is on the brink of calling all of this off. I need some answers and need to find some way to reassure her. I am excited now by thinking of her with another man that is not tiny like me. A real man. I know she would really open up then but there seems to be a roadblock. Sorry for the lengthy post and please let me know if this is not the right place for something like this.