Billy, I feel your pain. I've had ED for about 15 years as well. Medication doesn't work. Testosterone implants keep my interest in sex up, but nothing else. We still have physical contact, but dildos are not real cocks. When I first brought up fucking other men, she called me a pervert and said I didn't love her. Slowly, for whatever reason she warmed up to the idea. Now, here we are looking for her first BBC experience. Just the process of looking for an alpha man to fuck your wife is emasculating. I'm sure the actual experience will be even more so.