most people know in the south that racists attitudes still resides very strongly in my situation i was 16 years old and my girl friend had a brother about to gradgeuwaite and i knew he had the hot's for me and he was nice on the eye's also he asked me out to his prom night'' with little hesitation i wrote him a letter sayen yes id love to go! i realy did not care im white and he was black it should not matter'' well my letter was found by my mother im told but i feel it was my racists brother who dont like blacks at all'' he had already droped a dime on me to our daddy in kentucky about me and blacks.well the letter wound up in my daddys hands and he paid me a visit'' he was so angry and put a beaten on me ! told me i am not to go with n*****s not one of his he would kill me first! he put fear in me with out adought'' my family is very racists from way back even had slaves way back . but position is not a racists bone in me not hate but pure hot throbbing lust for bbc the blacker the better my new hubby say's it's carma came back around to my racists family what they hated so much posses me and to go aganst carma is very foolish! once i told him about it all he is ready to spoile me to get back at all of them'' he say's i should let the shame and fear go and be the bbc i want to truly be so any one have advice do you agree with hubby '' should i let him spoile me as he likes obey carma and go with my lust!