I am a 26yo white male, my wife is 27 and average buid, sexy build, big ass, just the right amount of thick. We have been married about 4 years now, with 2 children. Which led her to be extremely selfconcious about her body. Years before we married I have been obsessed with having a BBC slut wife. I have only jacked off to IR porn for many years, I have always kept it a well guarded secret fantasy. My wife is fairly conservative, both our families are very conservative. She has never been with a black man. We have a good sexlife right now and she says I am big, though I am average 5.5 length, average girth. I, on the other hand, can only get off while fucking her thinking of her being stretched by BBC. She has been exposed to IR porn before browsing through sites together,(we have only watched porn together a few times) but she has never shown too much interest in it and I have always been too afraid to click on it while watching porn together. I led her to the female choice section of xhamster, which has a lot of IR then I tell her to find something she likes, hoping she'll click IR. She comments saying a lot of this is black on white, I just casually tell her I guess a lot of women like it because it's in this section for a reason. We also play with toys ALOT, she plays alone a lot too. Recently I bought a black mamba xl cock sleeve which is huge and pitch black. I fuck her with it almost every time we have sex right now at least half the time. She loves watching it slide in and out. A lot of the time I tell her to pick a toy, she'll grab the huge black sleeve and smile. Normally I'll fuck her with my dick (sometimes she grabs my hand and pushes my fingers in her pussy alongside my dick, sometimes she does it herself) , I'll put on the sleeve then fuck her brains out, she can take it ALL and it drives her crazy, then I'll fuck her sloppy cunt and cum inside her. Its amazing. She has told me sometimes she'll play with one of her vribrators with the sleeve on it while she's alone too. Which is gets me hard just thinking about it. I think I want to see her fuck the real thing, but I'm not sure yet. I am, but I don't want others to know about it. I'm not into being humiliated or anything like that, just want to watch her pussy be destroyed by a BBC, at least once. I also don't want her to tell her friends, especially the neighbor's wife, who's husband happens to be my boss at work in a way. But I know she would tell her, even if I just told her about my fantasy, she would share it with her. And I cannot afford that info getting around at work. So you think she secretly wants BBC based of this? Should I move forward? How can I and keep it completely secret? I am New here, but I am not fake, or trolling in Any way I just want advice on my situation. Any advice is welcomed.