My journey so far

[UndercoverCuck]

Just wanted to share where I'm at so far w/ my wife and maybe next steps.

Me and my wife has been together for over 10 years. I've always had a fantasy of sharing her and for the most part I keep this subdued. Sometimes I cant help myself and try to reveal this to her. A few years ago we were having sex and I felt like it was time for it to just come out. We were having sex and ******* and I just told her during sex that I wanted to share her. She completely freaked out and was not having it at all. At the risk of messing up our relationship (that I am very happy about) I played it off and said I was just ******* and was just talking. At this point I kind of reset and tried to figure out if this fantasy was even possible. She is very vanilla but our sex life is good. She usually follows my lead but I didn't want to do anything to make her uncomfortable or that she didn't want to do.
I spent the next few years trying to find more fun things to do in the bedroom and trying to open her up sexually. This wasn't completely related to sharing but I just wanted to make out sex life more fun and adventurous as well. She had never really used sex toys so I started buying her sex toys and we made a few trips to the sex shop. All the toys I bought her were black, but she didn't really make the connection. Though after this she would be the one to pull out sex toys during sex and became very attached to using one of her bigger black vibrators a lot during sex. I also started asking her for pictures during the day and she started sending me sexy selfies and nudes from work. Lots more sexting and sexual conversation began from there.
My sister is poly and even asked her behind my back if she was interested in becoming poly as my sister needed poly friends. My wife was not intersted but this caused us to have many conversations about alternative lifestyles. I told her I was not really intersted in it due to all the emotional connections, but in some of the other life styles that have more freaky things going on. I told her how much it turns me on when other guys hit on her and knowing how wanted she is by other men. She has told me in the past how this makes her uncomfortable. I mentioned the idea of her chatting online just for fun. At this time she was neutral to this idea, didn't hate it, but I didn't push as she wasn't fully on board with the idea at this time. I felt like we were making progress.
We started having conversations about playing w ass play. This was a big step as she said this is something she would never do. But we started talking about it lately and she talked about being open to it and weve been playing w/ butt plugs on her initiative so this seems like big progress as well.
Upon a lot of stuff Ive seen in here, I got her a realistic BBC dildo and surprised her with that. Shes never had a black guy and thats my ultimate fantasy for her. Before I could surpise her with it, she saw it in my amazon cart order. I was going to tell her about my interracial kink and explain it that way. I told her that my number one goal is to see her satisfied. I'm not not small and she usually orgasms during sex but I want to see her at maximum pleasure. I told her I like IR port because I like to see the woman being stretched and get the biggest they can and I've really made an effort to cut down on porn and focus on her so getting a bbc dildo was a really big fantasy to roleplay with her. She was a little awkward but wasnt upset about it. She was willing to play with it that night she said.
We played with it that night. It was the prince yashua 10.5 dildo so she named it prince. She was quite worried when she saw it but was a good sport. She was only able to take it about halfway the first time but she still put her vibrator on her clit while she was taking it. She had to tap out and I finished her off. She was very sore and she was walking a little funny. She was extremely sexual the next few days though
We had sex the next night and when we started doing stuff she asked if I wanted to bring prince out again. I asked her if she was really asking for his and she said " it just seemed like it turned you on so much it seemed like it would be good" I told her she might need a break and I just fucked her and made her cum. But I reminded her that prince would return eventually. So the next day she was super sexual again, flirting all day. She got pretty ******* and asked for prince again, she has now started calling me little prince. I got prince out and she took him all the way! When she started getting close she started saying she wanted to cum on my cock but I made her cum on the dildo and told her I wanted to see her cum on him. She told me "I know you love seeing me get fucked by big black cock" it was so hot. I fucked her after.

She also mentioned a week ago when we were talking about different lifestyles that it would be curious to make some kind of profile (that i would run) just to see what kind of male attention she would get. I feel this should wait as it was before the bbc stuff though. But Ive made a lot of progress, and wanted to share. Dont know if I should make any other steps or just keep going with what ive been doing

 

[UndercoverCuck]

So I have an update on this situation but in a different direction. There is a man that is tempting my wife I believe or is heavily pursuing her and has been for years. Her old boss really wanted her and does not seem to be going away. There may be nothing there but I believe she is affected by him.

About a year or so ago we went out to dinner and she told me she found out her manager had a crush on her. I asked her how and he was telling co workers at her work about all these things he would do her if she wasn't married. I was intrigued so I asked her how she felt and she said a little uncomfortable. She said he always asked for hugs as well. She's very well endowed so I'm not surprised. Over the next few months he started talking down on me and continuing to make moves on her and some other girls. He ended up getting let go for sexual harassment and I thought that was the end. She was one of the ones that spoke to hr as well.

She doesn't talk that ill if him despite all of this. He occasionally finds reasons to call her and she talks to him when he does. I just recently found out when they worked together he also grabbed her ass which she never told me back then. She said she thought I knew.

He recently called her as he is getting married. He asked her to come take photos at his wedding. But she hasn't been a photographer in decades. She just told me "someone wants me to photo their wedding but you don't like them". I also realized they follow each other on social media as well.


She also just got a new job. She could of used her current boss for a reference but she used him. He's very persistent and I used to hate him but the thought of her doing something w him is turning me on so much. Something about the hold he has on her drives me crazy

 

[Anthony0542]

The double edge sword feeling of a cuck?

I’m assuming her boss is Black

 

[UndercoverCuck]

The double edge sword feeling of a cuck?

I’m assuming her boss is Black

Yes he is. It's crazy at one point I wanted nothing but him to go away and leave her alone and now it almost feels like he's earned this power over her. His persistence and power dynamic is intoxicating.

 

[UndercoverCuck]

We've been role playing w bbc dildo quite a bit. Not the real thing but she gets the idea. One night we were doing a bunch of stuff w it and when we we finished a d I made her cum on prince she grabbed my cock. She said I'm surprised you're not harder seeing me on a "big black cock". I instantly got rock hard hearing her say that. She started riding me and asked me why that got me hard. I told her how much I liked her getting stretched a d having bigger than me. We had mind blowing sex

 

[UndercoverCuck]

Ok so time for an update. Nothing with the old boss that has fizzled out. But I have had many conversations over the past few months with my wife about what I like and watched it develop. She has been very open minded and has tried some stuff due to wanting to explore my kink. She willingly tried to talk online directly to a bull but that was a hard fail as they did not vibe at all and he was too aggressive and corny. We took a step back and she got a little upset but was still willing to try. She wanted me to be the buffer and talk to bulls for her and show her what they said. Shes always said she was curious what they thought of her. We have been doing talking online on discord with me sharing pics that she has approved and showing her the reactions and sending them back and forth.

We went out to dinner and were talking about our relationship. She asked about the sharing fantasy and I told her I was cool with it all staying online. She called me out and said "I think you want a bull to rail me" I didn't deny but said only when she was comfortable. Later in the night she asked about a hypothetical and referenced a few times I haven't gotten fully hard and said if my performance got worse she would need to find a bull to make sure her needs are met. She has never talked like this before! she is very loyal but I think the wheels are turning.

We has sex last night and I took care of her cuz I wasn't getting hard even though I was turned on so much by her. I only got hard when we talked about sharing her pics w/ bulls. She pulled out the BBC dildo and she came on it and kept talking about how it made her pussy lips look. I came so fast. I want her to use chastity on my but shes a little resistant with it.

 

[Blkdreams88]

My friend it sounds like you are on the path to seeing her blacked good! My wife and I have been together for 11 years and we have made progress. Her biggest hang up is emotional attachment. She is worried about that for her. So IDK what to do. We talk about it for enhanced sex and I use our BBC dildo on her as much as she lets me. Still not sure if it will ever be a real thing. I know that I have told her it would be hot for her to fuck black men behind my back and with me knowing. I've tried every angle and feel hopeless.

 

[UndercoverCuck]

Just got my chastity, getting locked up tonight. So excited because I know this is the path to getting her in from of real men with bigger cocks which is what she deserves. Her body doesn't belong to me but she should be with bulls physically and I will take care of her in other ways.

 

[UndercoverCuck]

So another update:

Things have progressed and took a major step. She has a main online bull now. She had shut down chatting a while back but there was this guy that had friended her on a mutual server that we had. He got to know her over time so she continued to talk to him. He reallly got to know her and she was keeping me in the loop the whole time. Due to her having to have some kind of connection before opening up sexually it was really the only chance. Hes been messaging me as well. Over the past week he has been asking for content and she has been slowly giving it to him, which she tells me about to. The first time she saw his cock all she could say was WOW.

There are days she tells me shes too busy at work and I find out later shes been messaging him and sending him nudes. She also told him that pussy was something she saved for me, but after he pushed a few times she came home and talked to me. She said she wanted to give it to him and asked my opinion. I told her as long as she felt comfortable she was in control and is free to do what she wants, as long as she doesnt do something she will regret. She has been sending her days sending him all of her and getting more from him.

 

[UndercoverCuck]

Okay another update and need some advice. My wife has moved on and has another more permanent bull that she vibes with. He lives in the states and in a ways away bit will close if we keep out plan of.where we are moving to next year. I know the emotional connection she needs to build first and that part is a little scary. The sexual part is so hot to me, even online she's started to do things for him thay I had asked her to do before. I just worry about her getting so deep in with him and losing our relationship.

She was never interested in irl before a d is talking about it and is also bringing up opening the marriage eventually. I don't know where my insecurities are coming from. I know I asked for a hotwife and now I have one so I should be happy right? I guess I just wanted things to move at a certain pace and now they are getting away from me. She seemed obsessed w him, Maybe it's new relationship energy?

 

[Blkdreams88]

Your wife sounds hot for BBC and that's a good thing. Now to answer your question effectively all I can tell you is to have the conversation with her. Talk more about plans and agreements. Clear the air about concerns. If you both can't agree on all of it then it's not worth doing unless you don't care about your marriage. Focus on the important and see if you two can make it work without hurting each other in the process. For example she may talk about opening the marriage. Why? So she can have a white and black husband with separate uses? If you don't want that you need to talk to her.

 

[UndercoverCuck]

Your wife sounds hot for BBC and that's a good thing. Now to answer your question effectively all I can tell you is to have the conversation with her. Talk more about plans and agreements. Clear the air about concerns. If you both can't agree on all of it then it's not worth doing unless you don't care about your marriage. Focus on the important and see if you two can make it work without hurting each other in the process. For example she may talk about opening the marriage. Why? So she can have a white and black husband with separate uses? If you don't want that you need to talk to her.

Yeah we had a conversation shes going to slow down with him a little bit. she may need a few bulls online to separate out her attention because she needs a lot of it right now. shes pretty insatiable. we talked about the future of irl which I know will happen at some point when were both ready.

 

[Blkdreams88]

Yeah we had a conversation shes going to slow down with him a little bit. she may need a few bulls online to separate out her attention because she needs a lot of it right now. shes pretty insatiable. we talked about the future of irl which I know will happen at some point when were both ready.

Good to have open communication!