I like this post. We have not done this yet but my wife understands I would enjoy watching her.
I like your insight into this. Your comment about paying your husband no never mind and it's like he's not even there is interesting. I would think that being caught up in the moment renders you incapable of caring what your husband might be going through, am I right? I've seen videos where
initially the wife was very aware of her husband's presence and even kept tabs on him by glancing over at him to ensure he was okay with what she was doing. I've also seen these wive's keep their responses to the men they were with very measured and you could actually tell that some were intentionally were masking their arousal and limiting their excitement but as soon as they started getting
into it they just were no longer capable of maintaining that facade.
I LOVE THOSE MOMENTS!!
The thing you posted that really caught my attention was the "perverse pleasure" you took in your husband's inadequacy and humiliation. I do not necessarily feel that way in this, maybe a little, but something inside me tells me my wife gets off on knowing I am watching her let some huge black man make love to her with a very large penis. For a devoted wife she can be a tad bit unscrupulous in certain moments and she has this little sliver of not giving a fuck attitude about how I feel at times, such as in a disagreement, so I see her being somewhat like you in that she might find a sense of pleasure in watching me be humbled by the presence of a black man in bed with her.
No, you are not a bad person.
