I never thought I'd do it

Discussion in 'Introduce Yourself Here' started by DDDebbie, May 20, 2016.

  1. DDDebbie

    DDDebbie Active Member

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    My husband has E.D. And I have never really complained, to him, about it. I love sex, a lot more than my husband obviously does. If I never brought up sex, my husband wouldn't, either.

    We've been together for ten years. I have been complacent with the sex we've had, and initiating but, it does get old after a while. I have been monogamous with my husband for ten years, that is until yesterday. My husband was at work and I was doing yard work. Our neighbor was putting up a fence dividing his driveway and ours. He had his shirt off and was looking very sexy. I mentioned to our neighbor that he looked very sexy all sweaty and without his shirt on. And he liked that.

    Long story short, we ended up in my bed for almost two hours. It was amazing, like nothing I'd ever experienced before. Our neighbor was so passionate. He made me feel wanted and sexy. And I wanted him like I have never wanted another man before. I'd seen pictures on my husband's PC of white women having sex with black men but, I never thought I would be one of them. Now I am.

    I've had sex with a lot of white guys but, none ever made me feel like our neighbor did yesterday. It still feel like he's in me. And I like that feeling. I haven't told my husband about what we did, and I'm not sure I will, or when. I do know yesterday was not the last time me and our neighbor will have each other again. And I want him again, soon!

    The funny thing is I don't feel guilty. I almost feel like I deserved the sex I had yesterday. It made me feel like I was somebody. And I like that. Our neighbor works nights. So, I have a feeling that he and I will get to know each other a lot better as time goes on.

    I don't know if I am now a statistic or not but, I am one more white wife that has learned that having sex with a black man can be very fulfilling and make you feel like you're somebody, somebody worth having.
     
  2. jdflacpl

    jdflacpl Well-Known Member Real Person Gold Member

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    If you found IR sex pics on your husbands PC then I'm pretty sure he would approve of you and the neighbor. You should start talking to him about the ED issue and how you need sex. I bet he will tell you its ok to find some one that can give you that. I would hide what you did and are going to do again from him for very long
     
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  3. DDDebbie

    DDDebbie Active Member

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    My husband is ashamed that he doesn't get erections spontaniously anymore. And he goes soft quickly, without even cumming. He has told me in the past that I should find someone that can do for me what he can't. I just don't really know how to tell him that I did just that. And I am not sure how this is going to affect our relationship. I loved the sex I had with our neighbor, and I know I will do it again, yet I do still feel somewhat, I don't know. I really don't know how I feel right now, other than I want more of what I got yesterday.
     
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  4. ramgabbc

    ramgabbc Well-Known Member Gold Member

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    Get what you like if he love you he will want to see you happy baby
     
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  5. Ronnie22

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  6. Ronnie22

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    You didn't tell your husband about this episode. Did you about the all the white guys? Obviously this one is more meaningful for you and so for that reason you do not want to share it with him. Almost a love affair. Complicated by the neighbor being black. It is wiser to not bring this to your husbands attention because of his probable sensitivity about his ED. Chances are your involvement with the neighbor will make you an even more considerate, and of course more content, housewife. Extramarital affairs often have that positive effect. If it hasn't happened yet, be a sociable neighbor, invite him over to get hubby to know him possibly like him, and eventually get him around to accepting your affair. He already is interested in black-white sex. It may also help his ED problem.
     
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  7. MacNfries

    MacNfries Well-Known Member Sweet & Cordial Gold Member

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    @DDDebbie
    I totally agree with jdflacpl's advice ... and no need to spill the beans as to your unfaithfulness just yet. Both you and your hubby may be surprised to find that your getting what you need is extra-stimulating to him as well. Time to open up that conversation again regarding his issue and your needs.

    My only concern (as it wasn't mentioned) is that your neighbor is or is not married. Bringing HIS woman on board (if there is a lady in his home) is a whole other issue. Being next door will inevitably become a major problem if there is a MRS. in his house. You don't want to end up on the 6 o'clock news either dead or assaulted by a pissed off wife.
     
  8. BrotherlyLove4U

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    Peep this Tell him that you seen the IR porn and you would like to watch it with him. Then some how during watching the porn, Let him know its excites you and maybe play with your kitty some, then when things get hot let him know you want to try it.
     
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  9. BrotherlyLove4U

    BrotherlyLove4U Member Real Person

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    dont mention the neighbor let that be a one time deal.
     
  10. DDDebbie

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    I thank you all for your advice. Our neighbors are three black men that share the house together. They are all single. This has been a lot for me to digest, in more ways than one. I am a Christian wife. I love my husband. Until Thursday I had never even thought about sex with another man, let alone a black man. And now I have had sex with all three of the men that live next door to us. I feel liberated and ashamed at the same time. And I still have not told my husband what I've done.

    Yesterday I was a woman I didn't know. I went to our neighbor's house and told the one that I'd been with that I wanted him more often. And he suggested I just kind of open myself to him and his roommates, and just let nature take it's course. And I did. I let these men tell me what to do and I let them do anything they wanted to me. And I loved it. Yet, I also felt intimidated. I was scared of who I was with them but, I also felt like I mattered, more with them than I have ever before.

    As a Christian woman, I shouldn't even have thoughts of being with another man, let alone other men but, I want to, badly. I can't change what I've done, and I don't really want to. My husband worked yesterday until 9:30 PM, he works at a call center. I had his dinner ready for him when he got home. I tried not to act differently around him but, he mentioned that something seemed different about me. My husband is not usually a touchy feely kind of guy but, last night he rubbed my leg and kissed me, with tongue. And that rarely ever happens.

    I went down on my husband last night, out of feelings of guilt, and something was different then, too. I didn't like that I went down on him out of guilt, and I also never noticed how small he is, either. He didn't get hard, either. I'm confused but, I don't think I am going to stop having sex with other men now. I will say that I liked how me having sex with our neighbors affected my husband even though he doesn't know I did anything.
     
  11. BrotherlyLove4U

    BrotherlyLove4U Member Real Person

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    Well then I'm guessing you feeling that saying is true. Once you go black you never go back. Just be careful and don't get caught being you love it and not willing to stop. I would've loved to been one of them I bet you hot as fuck
     
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  12. Ronnie22

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  13. Ronnie22

    Ronnie22 Member

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    Is this fantasy?
     
  14. DDDebbie

    DDDebbie Active Member

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    No. This is not fantasy. This is more real than I want it to be. I am confused. I am new to all of this and found this site. I'm not sure what to think or how to feel. I can't talk about this with anyone I know. I'm cheating on my husband and I feel guilty but, that doesn't make me want to stop. I fear who I've become and who I may become. And I fear what may happen between me and my husband if he finds out what I've done. Fantasy is easy to deal with. This is not easy.
     
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  15. Ronnie22

    Ronnie22 Member

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    Apologies. I have experienced similar quandaries.
     
  16. maccachew

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    DDDebbie .. Please don't feel guilty at all .. You will learn that it is very natural for white girls to need black cocks in them .. and white hubbies do generally accept that they are not able to take care of their wives .. I want to discuss this further with you .. but please don't feel ashamed
     
  17. Ronnie22

    Ronnie22 Member

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    Could not agree more.
     
  18. maccachew

    maccachew Active Member

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    Yes most of us white guys are not even close to size of black men and I'm not sure but I think black men are taking over our white wives and daughters for good reason
     
  19. Ronnie22

    Ronnie22 Member

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    One of the best present day developments is the increased general recognition of that
     
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  20. maccachew

    maccachew Active Member

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    Yes and white girls should talk openly and with compassion with white men to encourage them to serve the cause and be as helpful as possible to white girls and any good black guy that wants to fuck them