I know I've certainly had phases or periods in a relationship, where I felt that I'd definitely bottom for men - preferably BBC - exclusively if I were to find myself starting over single. I kind of felt that maybe - as some posters on here are fond of saying - that I had just always been gay, and that I repressed it, and that the BBC just brought it out. That my kink wasn't being cuck, but just basically being gay and in denial, and of course, the IR as well.
So I was kind of deeply surprised when I did get out of a monogamous, hetero relationship, and was free to do whatever I wanted, that I really lost all interest. I actually had to make a point of remembering and reminding myself how badly I'd fantasized and that I shouldn't hesitate now that I was ethically free to act. And while I had some fun with a couple of guys, outside of the hetero relationship, my focus turned again entirely to women.
During one 'interlude' between GFs, I actually went all out, saw a woman who specialized in grooming femme men, who helped me get smooth all over and do some extensive feminine grooming all over. I had a BBC FWB who loved for me to wear panties - and we had a good time, and I really loved servicing him, but the intense draw wasn't there and I was more or less kind of making myself pursue it. I really expected it to be otherwise - I almost expected it to be cathartic and I would just decide it was obvious that I had always been meant to really service BBCs as a femme little white boy.
So, from this I concluded that a) I'm not actually gay, and b) that the attraction has something to do with those relationship dynamics with the straight partner. I believe it's the eroticization of some basic insecurities in the relationship, coupled with some heteroflexibility or bisexuality; I think the IR aspect takes the weird racism of our culture and eroticizes some insecurities that exist around that as well.
I have considered myself "bisexual" because I suck cock and like to be fucked (and I can say unabashedly and unreservedly that I have run this experiment and the answer is YES, I LIKE IT), but I sometimes wonder if that's even correct, because with very very few exceptions, I never look at a man and think "oomph, I'd love to get my hands on his body". In fact, the only guy I know in real life - a black dude who works at a take out place I frequent - has ever given me that "Oooh" feeling - something I get multiple times every day just checking out random women walking around. This guy has the most amazing dark dark brown/black eyes...like liquid pools, and a smile...and I have no idea what his package is like - that wasn't even the draw - that was the only time I've ever met a guy and had the butterflies. So I really don't think "bi" is appropriate. but a lot of people will angrily point to the tab-B into slot-A genital activities and insist "bi" if not "gay" - whatever, I don't really care. I'm happy to self-label as bi.
tldr: I guess I'd say I've actually tried this, and it turned out that, nope, I wouldn't just go BBC only.
So I was kind of deeply surprised when I did get out of a monogamous, hetero relationship, and was free to do whatever I wanted, that I really lost all interest. I actually had to make a point of remembering and reminding myself how badly I'd fantasized and that I shouldn't hesitate now that I was ethically free to act. And while I had some fun with a couple of guys, outside of the hetero relationship, my focus turned again entirely to women.
During one 'interlude' between GFs, I actually went all out, saw a woman who specialized in grooming femme men, who helped me get smooth all over and do some extensive feminine grooming all over. I had a BBC FWB who loved for me to wear panties - and we had a good time, and I really loved servicing him, but the intense draw wasn't there and I was more or less kind of making myself pursue it. I really expected it to be otherwise - I almost expected it to be cathartic and I would just decide it was obvious that I had always been meant to really service BBCs as a femme little white boy.
So, from this I concluded that a) I'm not actually gay, and b) that the attraction has something to do with those relationship dynamics with the straight partner. I believe it's the eroticization of some basic insecurities in the relationship, coupled with some heteroflexibility or bisexuality; I think the IR aspect takes the weird racism of our culture and eroticizes some insecurities that exist around that as well.
I have considered myself "bisexual" because I suck cock and like to be fucked (and I can say unabashedly and unreservedly that I have run this experiment and the answer is YES, I LIKE IT), but I sometimes wonder if that's even correct, because with very very few exceptions, I never look at a man and think "oomph, I'd love to get my hands on his body". In fact, the only guy I know in real life - a black dude who works at a take out place I frequent - has ever given me that "Oooh" feeling - something I get multiple times every day just checking out random women walking around. This guy has the most amazing dark dark brown/black eyes...like liquid pools, and a smile...and I have no idea what his package is like - that wasn't even the draw - that was the only time I've ever met a guy and had the butterflies. So I really don't think "bi" is appropriate. but a lot of people will angrily point to the tab-B into slot-A genital activities and insist "bi" if not "gay" - whatever, I don't really care. I'm happy to self-label as bi.
tldr: I guess I'd say I've actually tried this, and it turned out that, nope, I wouldn't just go BBC only.