A little more on sucking cock.
Sucking cock grosses me out. The humiliation of being on my knees, pleasuring another man with my mouth, taking his cum like a woman is almost too much to bare. Especially when my own little dick is freely exposed for people to see.
There is an older interracial couple that I hang with sometimes (see previous post). The guy makes me suck his big black cock in front of his girlfriend and their female friends. I have done it in front of a girl I date even. She gets turned on by watching me submit to Alpha males but isnt herself very Dominant.
There is a part of me that hates it. And a part that gets turned on by the humiliation. I've heard that someone can be a natural sissy but still need to have acceptance trained into them. I think this is true.
Nothing easy about a sissy lifestyle. You watch your women get fucked. You constantly endure humiliation and emasculation. You don't get sexual relief. You have cocks put in your mouth. But like a moth to flame, as soon as that big black cock swings out in front of you, you obediently fall to your knees and take it in your mouth.