So I kinda need some advice on what I should do next. Super freaked out and I think I have a very short window to figure this out.
So, some background. Been happily married for 4 years to my beautiful wife. I'm 41 and she's 32 5'4 115lbs, killer ass and smile. No ******* and on bc. We've had a pretty vanilla but good sex life for the most part and have never been into the lifestyle but have fantasized about another girl during sex with talk, nothing in the realm of full swinging but some interracial content. She's never been with a black guy and has only had 7 partners before we met. I am the largest guy she's been with at 7in. She always gets off on me and never really moves to want more to spice things up other than vibrators and light bandage. I on the other hand do fantasize about her being with black guys and would like to have eventually got her into the lifestyle if it did work for us. But she really has no idea.
Ok, fast forward to last sat night. Big date as it was our anniversary dinner hotel stay at a casino. Dressed up, suit, dress, having a great time, we always do... drinking at dinner, at the bar, and in the Casino... ended up about 5-6 drinks in at the casino bar and you could tell she was getting pretty *******. Very flirtatious with me, talkative to the bartenders, rubbing my leg, crotch, whispering in my ear how horny she was, how much she wanted me, pretty standard for her and alcohol.
We're sitting at the bar next to a small dance floor about 15 or so people dancing, mixed crowd, probably 6 ladies, 7-8 black guys, and rest white guys.. Wife asked me to go dance, which I don't do, well I slow dance but that's it. She loves to dance so I said hey just go dance... it's cool. She went off to the floor dancing chatting it up with the other girls, some of the guys and two of the black guys. She started dancing with them, nothing really crazy but a little proactive some light contact type grinding. At the time it did turn me on with my latent fantasies about interracial (kinda why I'm in the forum, lol). So I was good with it as I thought recalling would make for a hot fuck and maybe some furthering of my fantasy talk with her.
She comes back, out of breath and plops down, says she's getting another *******. I complimented her dancing and got to up to take a leak. Was gone for maybe 5min and come back to her chatting it up to two black guys from the dance floor. One was about my height 5'9 other was like 6'4 built... Actually took my seat and had bought her a *******. Not sure if they had saw me before but didn't really say anything me at first when I came back... wife was engaged in ******* conversation with both for a while and asked if she could go dance again.. but this time I was really turned on by the whole situation but also kinda nervous. Not sure why, the guys were definitely interested in her, and kinda keeping me as a third wheel in the conversations and such. But my wife's the talker.. me not so much. Anyway, I started drinking a bit more to calm those feelings and was definitely getting pretty hammered. The next few hours were kinda all ran together but we both kept drinking, she kept dancing, and me, the wife and the two guys ended up playing craps for a while and by this time I felt like she was more flirting and touchy feely with me but also them... by this time they had opened up to me and I was a lot more talkative. Some pretty decent guys.
I really don't know how or what get us all walking around the hotel shops areas by the casino floor but somehow the wife... completely hammered along with me pretty ******* and the two guys walking to our room and they were invited in for what the wife kept saying "afterparty!"... Hotel staff had our anniversary suite decorated with rose petals chilled champagne, chocolates all that as part of the anniversary package. The guys were sitting on the couch if I remember and I distinctly remember being with the wife in the bathroom making out her telling me how horny she is and pulled my hand down to her pussy up her dress and it was soaking wet. I fingered her for a little bit and said I wanted her too... I think we both forgot the dudes were on the couch drinking our champagne watching TV... So we both walk out of the bathroom and I yell something like hey where's the party! They got up and starting dancing with the wife one had his hands on her ass and I'm just enjoying the show ******* as fuck at this point. The wife was slurring and stumbling I sat down in a chair and looked up to see my wife making out with the taller guy. Totally NOT her. Anyway that kinda sobered me up with a bit of adrenaline and I almost got up and said whoa whoa whoa, but at the same time I was pretty uninhibited with the whole situation... my fantasy kind of took over and I let it go. but definitely more aware. I did get up and walk over to them but only to get my hands on the wife and start grabbing her ass from behind also. Well I guess that was some green light for these guys because the next thing I know the shorter dude had pulled out his cock and asked the wife to suck it. She was like "what?" to me and I kinda just gave her the shrugged shoulders. She grabbed it and said something like "I'm only for my husband or I only do that for him. But I'll make an exception" Fuck me if she didn't start blowing this guy on her knees. He had about the same size as me but a little thicker. But she commented on it saying it was big. I whipped out mine and she sucked it a little too... then the tall guy pulled out his.. and omfg it was a hog. I said Holy ******* before my wife even said anything. Then she said the same thing.. Guy was probably 8.5? but like thiiick. Very intimidating.. so there we were standing around my wife getting sucked off for like 10min before the shorter guy said he was going to bust and came in her mouth.. She gagged a bit on the cum and got up to go to the bathroom and so we're standing there and they were both like that was so hot. You're wife is so hot... I Said, I know!.. she came back out in just a bra so I guess she got water on her dress in the bathroom or something.. but she was just about naked. Plopped down on the bed said I hope you guys don't mind but the room is spinning. All worked up and hard as I could get being ******* I walked over got completely naked and immediately started sliding in her and fucking her... she was so wet, I easily slipped in. The bigger guy came to the side of the bed and she started sucking him again the other guy was at the foot of the bed and jacking off trying to get hard again. I was trying to soak up the whole experience the best I could being ******* but I remember cumming inside her and rolling off to the side with the room spinning.
Then it happened, heard the wife yelp and say fuck! so I look over and the big had got on top of her and trying to slide his cock in.. with as wet as she was and my cum he didn't have too much trouble before he was buried in there and sliding slowly in and out... I remember looking over to her legs on his shoulders ans his big dick just going all the way in and out.. she just kept sluring Oh my God and fuck and moaning. the smaller guy got hard again and was getting sucked off by her and the big guy was at this point going to town on her.. like seriously slam fucking her... she just kept yelping with each thrust... after a while, have no idea how long, he let out a grunt and I assume came inside.. I did remember that very vividly. At this point I didn't even care though. He got up rubbed his semi hard dick on her face to wipe it off and the other guy got on and started away. I don't remember him cumming right then but I remember him flipping her over fucking her from behind and the big guy took over again fucking her from behind also.. then the other guy again. I vaguely remember her on top of one of them and well I kinda ******* after that.
I woke up about 9am the next morning and I instantly remember what happened... and I fucking panicked. She was still asleep, under the sheets, and I got up looked around the room for the guys.. nothing.. just 2 empty champagne bottles and 4 glasses and my clothes on the floor and her dress in the bathroom. But I paced round for a good 20min recalling everything I could remember. I get back in bed fully expecting the wife to wake up and we both would look at each other like what the fuck just happened?
Well that didn't happen.. she eventually roused about 10am and started kissing me and rubbing me and that's always, the I want you sign... so I started fingering her she was super swollen, very wet, and obviously full of cum . She mumbled about being sore and go easy, but that's it. I got on top recalling again what happened in my head and came in like 5min. slight moans from her and she didn't orgasm that time but there wasn't much friction with how lubed she was and I was kind of quick..
So I got off of her and waited for the inevitable conversation to start... this is something she has never talked about doing, hinted at doing, or anything. The only time she every mentioned it was during sex talk role play saying she'd never have a threesome and it's just fantasy when she talked about it.
All she said was she had an amazing time last night and kept telling me I really beat her up but she didn't remember much after the bathroom make out session and she didn't say anything about bringing the guys back to the room! I prodded a bit and asked what she thought of how the night went.. She said she had a great time dancing chatting and even playing craps and flirting with the guys but she loved coming back to just us on our anniversary.. but she didn't remember much.. saying she specifically remembers looking into my eyes and it felt so good and I was so hard and I fucker her so good by how sore she was. Not sure if she's just saying that for my ego to make up for her lack of memory or she's conflating me with the guys.. But I'm now kicking myself for not saying what happened right away. I was honestly scared of her reaction and her blaming me for not stopping her or protecting her. But at the time it seemed like she was the one initiating all of it. Not sure why she doesn't remember anything... she had like 9 maybe 10 drinks... she takes zoloft sometimes, prescription antacids, and sometimes tramodol for her past shoulder injury.. but has never blacked out like that, that I can remember. So interaction? *******? (I really doubt it) Although we haven't drank that much since we were dating either.
So anyway, she got up, got in the shower, asked about breakfast ending time and made several more comments about how sore she was and how I owe her for last night. Yeah, I'm sweating bullets by now.
Fast forward to yesterday... back home... jokingly told me I'm on probation for beating up the kitty and she's still sore.. and teasing that I fell out of her twice already making her change her underwear.
So great... that all happened. Nothing I can change. But am I fucked now on telling her two days later and coming clean to what I know happened? I really don't know what to do without her going ballistic or at least I feel like she would. Either blaming me or blaming herself. Mad at me I didn't tell her Sunday morning etc.. I just don't know what to do. Any chance she start remembering things or think it was just dreams? Do I just let it go and put it in the that never happened history bin?
Or do I somehow parlay it into the lifestyle, which I have to admit.. the whole situation was off the charts hot as fuck... I just wish I had videod it or remembered more. hah.
Ugh I need advice though... quick.
So, some background. Been happily married for 4 years to my beautiful wife. I'm 41 and she's 32 5'4 115lbs, killer ass and smile. No ******* and on bc. We've had a pretty vanilla but good sex life for the most part and have never been into the lifestyle but have fantasized about another girl during sex with talk, nothing in the realm of full swinging but some interracial content. She's never been with a black guy and has only had 7 partners before we met. I am the largest guy she's been with at 7in. She always gets off on me and never really moves to want more to spice things up other than vibrators and light bandage. I on the other hand do fantasize about her being with black guys and would like to have eventually got her into the lifestyle if it did work for us. But she really has no idea.
Ok, fast forward to last sat night. Big date as it was our anniversary dinner hotel stay at a casino. Dressed up, suit, dress, having a great time, we always do... drinking at dinner, at the bar, and in the Casino... ended up about 5-6 drinks in at the casino bar and you could tell she was getting pretty *******. Very flirtatious with me, talkative to the bartenders, rubbing my leg, crotch, whispering in my ear how horny she was, how much she wanted me, pretty standard for her and alcohol.
We're sitting at the bar next to a small dance floor about 15 or so people dancing, mixed crowd, probably 6 ladies, 7-8 black guys, and rest white guys.. Wife asked me to go dance, which I don't do, well I slow dance but that's it. She loves to dance so I said hey just go dance... it's cool. She went off to the floor dancing chatting it up with the other girls, some of the guys and two of the black guys. She started dancing with them, nothing really crazy but a little proactive some light contact type grinding. At the time it did turn me on with my latent fantasies about interracial (kinda why I'm in the forum, lol). So I was good with it as I thought recalling would make for a hot fuck and maybe some furthering of my fantasy talk with her.
She comes back, out of breath and plops down, says she's getting another *******. I complimented her dancing and got to up to take a leak. Was gone for maybe 5min and come back to her chatting it up to two black guys from the dance floor. One was about my height 5'9 other was like 6'4 built... Actually took my seat and had bought her a *******. Not sure if they had saw me before but didn't really say anything me at first when I came back... wife was engaged in ******* conversation with both for a while and asked if she could go dance again.. but this time I was really turned on by the whole situation but also kinda nervous. Not sure why, the guys were definitely interested in her, and kinda keeping me as a third wheel in the conversations and such. But my wife's the talker.. me not so much. Anyway, I started drinking a bit more to calm those feelings and was definitely getting pretty hammered. The next few hours were kinda all ran together but we both kept drinking, she kept dancing, and me, the wife and the two guys ended up playing craps for a while and by this time I felt like she was more flirting and touchy feely with me but also them... by this time they had opened up to me and I was a lot more talkative. Some pretty decent guys.
I really don't know how or what get us all walking around the hotel shops areas by the casino floor but somehow the wife... completely hammered along with me pretty ******* and the two guys walking to our room and they were invited in for what the wife kept saying "afterparty!"... Hotel staff had our anniversary suite decorated with rose petals chilled champagne, chocolates all that as part of the anniversary package. The guys were sitting on the couch if I remember and I distinctly remember being with the wife in the bathroom making out her telling me how horny she is and pulled my hand down to her pussy up her dress and it was soaking wet. I fingered her for a little bit and said I wanted her too... I think we both forgot the dudes were on the couch drinking our champagne watching TV... So we both walk out of the bathroom and I yell something like hey where's the party! They got up and starting dancing with the wife one had his hands on her ass and I'm just enjoying the show ******* as fuck at this point. The wife was slurring and stumbling I sat down in a chair and looked up to see my wife making out with the taller guy. Totally NOT her. Anyway that kinda sobered me up with a bit of adrenaline and I almost got up and said whoa whoa whoa, but at the same time I was pretty uninhibited with the whole situation... my fantasy kind of took over and I let it go. but definitely more aware. I did get up and walk over to them but only to get my hands on the wife and start grabbing her ass from behind also. Well I guess that was some green light for these guys because the next thing I know the shorter dude had pulled out his cock and asked the wife to suck it. She was like "what?" to me and I kinda just gave her the shrugged shoulders. She grabbed it and said something like "I'm only for my husband or I only do that for him. But I'll make an exception" Fuck me if she didn't start blowing this guy on her knees. He had about the same size as me but a little thicker. But she commented on it saying it was big. I whipped out mine and she sucked it a little too... then the tall guy pulled out his.. and omfg it was a hog. I said Holy ******* before my wife even said anything. Then she said the same thing.. Guy was probably 8.5? but like thiiick. Very intimidating.. so there we were standing around my wife getting sucked off for like 10min before the shorter guy said he was going to bust and came in her mouth.. She gagged a bit on the cum and got up to go to the bathroom and so we're standing there and they were both like that was so hot. You're wife is so hot... I Said, I know!.. she came back out in just a bra so I guess she got water on her dress in the bathroom or something.. but she was just about naked. Plopped down on the bed said I hope you guys don't mind but the room is spinning. All worked up and hard as I could get being ******* I walked over got completely naked and immediately started sliding in her and fucking her... she was so wet, I easily slipped in. The bigger guy came to the side of the bed and she started sucking him again the other guy was at the foot of the bed and jacking off trying to get hard again. I was trying to soak up the whole experience the best I could being ******* but I remember cumming inside her and rolling off to the side with the room spinning.
Then it happened, heard the wife yelp and say fuck! so I look over and the big had got on top of her and trying to slide his cock in.. with as wet as she was and my cum he didn't have too much trouble before he was buried in there and sliding slowly in and out... I remember looking over to her legs on his shoulders ans his big dick just going all the way in and out.. she just kept sluring Oh my God and fuck and moaning. the smaller guy got hard again and was getting sucked off by her and the big guy was at this point going to town on her.. like seriously slam fucking her... she just kept yelping with each thrust... after a while, have no idea how long, he let out a grunt and I assume came inside.. I did remember that very vividly. At this point I didn't even care though. He got up rubbed his semi hard dick on her face to wipe it off and the other guy got on and started away. I don't remember him cumming right then but I remember him flipping her over fucking her from behind and the big guy took over again fucking her from behind also.. then the other guy again. I vaguely remember her on top of one of them and well I kinda ******* after that.
I woke up about 9am the next morning and I instantly remember what happened... and I fucking panicked. She was still asleep, under the sheets, and I got up looked around the room for the guys.. nothing.. just 2 empty champagne bottles and 4 glasses and my clothes on the floor and her dress in the bathroom. But I paced round for a good 20min recalling everything I could remember. I get back in bed fully expecting the wife to wake up and we both would look at each other like what the fuck just happened?
Well that didn't happen.. she eventually roused about 10am and started kissing me and rubbing me and that's always, the I want you sign... so I started fingering her she was super swollen, very wet, and obviously full of cum . She mumbled about being sore and go easy, but that's it. I got on top recalling again what happened in my head and came in like 5min. slight moans from her and she didn't orgasm that time but there wasn't much friction with how lubed she was and I was kind of quick..
So I got off of her and waited for the inevitable conversation to start... this is something she has never talked about doing, hinted at doing, or anything. The only time she every mentioned it was during sex talk role play saying she'd never have a threesome and it's just fantasy when she talked about it.
All she said was she had an amazing time last night and kept telling me I really beat her up but she didn't remember much after the bathroom make out session and she didn't say anything about bringing the guys back to the room! I prodded a bit and asked what she thought of how the night went.. She said she had a great time dancing chatting and even playing craps and flirting with the guys but she loved coming back to just us on our anniversary.. but she didn't remember much.. saying she specifically remembers looking into my eyes and it felt so good and I was so hard and I fucker her so good by how sore she was. Not sure if she's just saying that for my ego to make up for her lack of memory or she's conflating me with the guys.. But I'm now kicking myself for not saying what happened right away. I was honestly scared of her reaction and her blaming me for not stopping her or protecting her. But at the time it seemed like she was the one initiating all of it. Not sure why she doesn't remember anything... she had like 9 maybe 10 drinks... she takes zoloft sometimes, prescription antacids, and sometimes tramodol for her past shoulder injury.. but has never blacked out like that, that I can remember. So interaction? *******? (I really doubt it) Although we haven't drank that much since we were dating either.
So anyway, she got up, got in the shower, asked about breakfast ending time and made several more comments about how sore she was and how I owe her for last night. Yeah, I'm sweating bullets by now.
Fast forward to yesterday... back home... jokingly told me I'm on probation for beating up the kitty and she's still sore.. and teasing that I fell out of her twice already making her change her underwear.
So great... that all happened. Nothing I can change. But am I fucked now on telling her two days later and coming clean to what I know happened? I really don't know what to do without her going ballistic or at least I feel like she would. Either blaming me or blaming herself. Mad at me I didn't tell her Sunday morning etc.. I just don't know what to do. Any chance she start remembering things or think it was just dreams? Do I just let it go and put it in the that never happened history bin?
Or do I somehow parlay it into the lifestyle, which I have to admit.. the whole situation was off the charts hot as fuck... I just wish I had videod it or remembered more. hah.
Ugh I need advice though... quick.
