I never thought I would cheat but after servers years of being married and husband paying more attention to his job than me . That was missing and itbjust happened to be a black man that did give me that attention
What I wrote to Miaxss so you know where I am coming from:
And you just described our relationship. My wife loves me however several years back our sex life bottomed out due to career then my retirement from the military. Big loss of confidence and sex drive. It did not help any that a few years after that I discovered interracial porn and I became fixated on watching her with a black man and knew we had a problem because I was no longer "taking care of her."
The blame was all on me because my wife craves attention in the bedroom and I knew that lack of attention might hurt our marriage. I also felt like it was just a matter of time before she sought out another man to pleasure her. So, since I had these fantasies anyway, I, in a seemingly subconscious way came to the conclusion she should take a sexual partner to prevent her from seeking out others without my knowledge and to receive the attention she deserves.
It must have been something she had pondered because she was very receptive to the idea once I got up the nerve to discuss it with her. And so far all the talk of her being with another man has not hurt us and in fact has brought us together in ways. I think we both accept the fact another man is needed because this went on for far too long and she has desires that I'm not meeting.
It's "cheating" but with my knowledge.
ATTN Jennie:
Trust me Jennie, I never thought my relationship with my wife would involve her being with another man in bed. What you posted about your husband reminds me of myself at the end of military career and once I focused my attention on that it was easier to avoid my duties as a husband in bed, there was always an excuse which my wife accepted without complaint.
The issue was it continued after I retired and I knew my wife was going to do what women like you have to do and that is seek out attention from another man. Thankfully, as I stated in the message to Miasxx, I had a solution that resolved the issue. My wife enjoys attention and the only way I knew it was going to happen was to introduce another man into our relationship.
I was candid and admitted my own failings but stressed my love for her and the fact she could be with another man but we could still have our marriage and she agreed.
The fact I have this desire to see her with a black man does not, I hope, make me disingenuous. The fact remained we were not having sex and had not had sex but a couple of times a year for several years and then it was nothing special on my part. It was a sexless marriage for all intents and purposes. We talked about the "cheating" part as it relates to our marriage and find it an acceptable arrangement.
I'm not going to lie though, her being with a black man has me stoked because I get to witness that passion and fire she has in the bedroom and I imagine it to be much more intense with a person of another race.