Do your cuck desires stem from a past experience of being dumped for another man or cheated on?

[slinky1]

It started for me back when I was 12. I grew up in a very small town with a very small elementary school. My class had 10 girls and 2 boys, and the other boy was special ed. So in my mind by the sixth grade I thought I had a harem, and in their minds I was apparently just one of the gang who happened to have a penis.

A new girl moved into town and she was gorgeous and much more mature than the rest of us. She opened up a bunch of new feelings inside me, a lot of it lust. I became obsessed and she strung me along. Then she started dating a boy in the fifth grade and flaunting it in front of my face, forsing the two of us to hang out with her together. Him angry because I was the third wheel, and I was angry because he was there at all. She loved it.

And then I had to watch them make out for the first time and something broke in me.

She moved away at the end of that same year, but she remained the model for my ‘perfect girl’ since then. Cute redheaded bad girls who like to tease and have a cruel streak in them.

And then of course all of the next 3 girls I had crushes on in middle school and high school were dating my friends... so yeah. All kinds of cuckold conditioning over here.

Same, always had a thing for cute but mean/ cruel girls as well. One girl at highschool I was besotted with, would finger her pussy and let me smell her fingers if I paid for her lunch. Once I offered to pay her a whole weeks pocket money to let me suck her fingers, only to find out out she told her girlfriends the next day and thus the boys as well.

Everyone found it funny because they were all highly sexually active yet I was yet to even kiss a girl/ finger a pussy/ suck on a nipple etc. let alone fuck one. So the fact i'd paid money for something the other boys were getting every day and a lot more, plus everyone sucking their finger and making wanking gestures to me for the days following was not an easy hurdle in my teens. But I was hooked on that type of girl then and ever since.

 

[Janus Marko]

Same, always had a thing for cute but mean/ cruel girls as well. One girl at highschool I was besotted with, would finger her pussy and let me smell her fingers if I paid for her lunch...

You just reminded me of this really sexy girl in high school that didn’t really know me well but we had classes together and I often would get caught staring at her. Eventually she realized how much I was into her and she suddenly started giving me attention. But it was clearly just a tease and culminated in her intentionally sitting in front of me on the bleachers during a football game, but scrunched way back so her ass was in my crotch and I was holding myself lowered down so I could feel it all. The whole time she was grinding back into me while she had the guy she was sort of dating feel her up and eventually start fingering her. She kept looking over her shoulder at me and giving me this devilish smile.

But then her fun was over and it never happened again.

 

[slinky1]

You just reminded me of this really sexy girl in high school that didn’t really know me well but we had classes together and I often would get caught staring at her. Eventually she realized how much I was into her and she suddenly started giving me attention. But it was clearly just a tease and culminated in her intentionally sitting in front of me on the bleachers during a football game, but scrunched way back so her ass was in my crotch and I was holding myself lowered down so I could feel it all. The whole time she was grinding back into me while she had the guy she was sort of dating feel her up and eventually start fingering her. She kept looking over her shoulder at me and giving me this devilish smile.

But then her fun was over and it never happened again.

I have bumped into some of these girls/ woman at school reunions and 30 years on, I don't think they realise how it affected my sexual development. By my late teens and still a virgin, I was already seeking girls who would give me any sexual attention, even if it was cock teasing me etc.

They were so sexually active they didn't seem to remember those instances (or the damage done) and I had no anger towards them, but it retarded my sexual growth permanently. Ever since, the meaner the girl the more I was sexually attracted to them. The less sex they gave me, the more desperate I was to make them happy and shower them with gifts, even just rubbing my cock until i'd cum would result in a new pair of shoes.

My life is almost the same these days, only my wife doesn't do it through being mean just by knowing how i'm wired.

 

[Dcsa909]

Mine started with my ex. Prior to me she was fucking a married bbc in Southern California. She was fucking him for years before we started dating. She had a high sex drive so we would fuck all the time. We would talk dirty and I remeber asking her to tell me who has fucked her the best. She was a bit buzzed and started telling me lol the details of her affair she had with this married bbc. I remember getting upset at her but extremely turned on me cumming almost instantly.

We continued to talk about it almost every time we had sex. I finally asked her if she would like to fuck him again. She said she was in love with me and would do anything for me. I was turned on about the thought of her getting fucked. I finally agreed to it but only if I wasn’t there and she recorded it and even called me at work to hear her moan. When I got home, we laid in bed and she started to suck on me while I watched the video. She said these words as he slid in her “your dick feels so fucking good, OH MY GOD”. I was hooked. Over the course of 5 years, she invited him over so many times. I remember when i finally watched in person, I busted without even stroking it or being touched.

 

[Seth1805]

Nope. I believe it stems from watching interracial porn and the fact my wife was very sexually active prior to meeting me but became this "good" wife when we got married because that was what she was "supposed" to do. I felt as though if given a chance she would be interested in sex outside our marriage with another man and I was correct. I hit the jackpot when she said she would be interested in a black man.

 

[slinky1]

Nope. I believe it stems from watching interracial porn and the fact my wife was very sexually active prior to meeting me but became this "good" wife when we got married because that was what she was "supposed" to do. I felt as though if given a chance she would be interested in sex outside our marriage with another man and I was correct. I hit the jackpot when she said she would be interested in a black man.

Its funny how many couples i've spoken to where the wife was a slut in her teens, only to either marry and and settle down too early or went straight for the alpha and he not having any desire to share her. The amount (my wife included) of wives who after a divorce/ second marriage go back to the desire of a sex life similar to their youth seems common. A lot of women do it as single divorcees but the ones who are lucky enough to find their cuck have told me its like they are 18 all over again.

 

[WillandSusn]

Oh definitely. My very first girlfriend cheated on me and rather than split with her, I was so fearful of friends or family finding out that she didn't enjoy sex with me, I not only let her cheat, but actually covered for her so she could sneak off without anybody of our friends finding out. I hated it at first, but the the embarrassment and humiliation is what I feared more than her fucking other guys...and that she may have fallen pregnant to them.
Funnily enough, to make myself feel better about it, i'd constantly get ******* and stay at home and masturbate...probably the worst thing I could have done.

Once my orgasms started to become much, MUCH more intense at the thought of her being fucked, that was the beginning of the end for me. It rewired my brain, I was hooked on habitually masturbating (5-6 times a day) to her opening her legs for other men, it changed my sexuality and where I saw myself on the sexual ladder. 30 years on, I'm still the same way and have never been able to shift the desire to be cuckolded.

. Never really thought about it as I was a bit of a nerd in high school but all the girls I dated had other boyfriends too often putting me in odd situations. In college , there were several women who were active sexually , some with black men but I was also more interested in sex too. Cramming for tests creates lots of tension and good sex is a terrific relief Of course Susan cheated on me when I was away which conditioned me as a cuckhold. I was thousands of miles away while she was fucking groups of young black men. No way I could compete sexually with these stud black men. I was left to accept the situation or get a divorce. It was very obvious that she had changed but did not want a. Divorce. In time. I learned more about white women and black men and learned Susan wasn't very different from the other wives also fucking black men. All of these women were changed for life and would continue ( and still do ) fucking black men. So I became a cuckhold as Susan continued to have sex with very physically fit , well endowed , young black men.

 

[NCoSanBull]

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[Seth1805]

Its funny how many couples i've spoken to where the wife was a slut in her teens, only to either marry and and settle down too early or went straight for the alpha and he not having any desire to share her. The amount (my wife included) of wives who after a divorce/ second marriage go back to the desire of a sex life similar to their youth seems common. A lot of women do it as single divorcees but the ones who are lucky enough to find their cuck have told me its like they are 18 all over again.

Nailed it. My wife was a loose cannon around guys when we met. Once we married her attitude towards sex changed. And yes, since all of this she feels like her younger days where she does not answer to anyone

 

[Classycuck]

Not for me, I'm just highly sexed and really perverted. I enjoy all kinds of fringe kinks such as cuckolding, IR, BDSM.

 

[steevigurl]

Yes. I had a girl friend in college cheat on me. I had no idea of what cuckolding was, had never heard the word. I found out she was seeing a man on the side and it had a strange effect on me because it turned me on. I got excited and the thought of them together, the thought of them kissing, having sex was a huge erotic thought for me. It got to the point that it turned me on more than being with her.

 

[Pcawk]

Firstly, years of rejection. I didn't really get to any level of attractive till after Highschool. Hearing other people's story's, over hearing convorsations of people having sex in Highschool while I was not, hearing how they fuck for hours, and me lasting minutes to seconds while masturbating. Coupled with convorsations about big cocks, small cocks, and guys who came early. I knew I didn't necessarily fit the "small" category, but I always talked myself out of the premature thing by saying "oh I could just go again"

The two major breaking points came from
1. Watching a rather famous porn video, of a pretty blonde with cute pigtail things riding a guy. He came in like 30 seconds, and the girls disappointed look, as she dismounts, he asks if they can go again, and she gives him this like, dissatisfied "oh sorry, I have class I got to go"

2. The first girl I had any sexual interaction with, and got super clingy to, ended up being more fond of black guys. This never cropped up until later.

Over time I began to seek out porn and porn captions of "loser" guys, virgin humiliation, premature humiliation etc. This kept leading me to penis size humiliation, which wasn't something I was into. I ignored BBC stuff, for a long time. Then I discovered cuckolding... My gf and I began talking in alot of sexual Roleplay chat rooms, eventually it led to us opening the relationship up just for ease... And I began to fantasize about the other guys fucking her, with bigger cocks, and longer stamina.

Cut to like 22 years old... That size and stamina I keep seeing, is leading back to 1 place.... Big, black, cock. It confirmed what I heard from the girls in school all those years ago.

 

[William Hammond]

It started for me back when I was 12. I grew up in a very small town with a very small elementary school. My class had 10 girls and 2 boys, and the other boy was special ed. So in my mind by the sixth grade I thought I had a harem, and in their minds I was apparently just one of the gang who happened to have a penis.

A new girl moved into town and she was gorgeous and much more mature than the rest of us. She opened up a bunch of new feelings inside me, a lot of it lust. I became obsessed and she strung me along. Then she started dating a boy in the fifth grade and flaunting it in front of my face, forsing the two of us to hang out with her together. Him angry because I was the third wheel, and I was angry because he was there at all. She loved it.

And then I had to watch them make out for the first time and something broke in me.

She moved away at the end of that same year, but she remained the model for my ‘perfect girl’ since then. Cute redheaded bad girls who like to tease and have a cruel streak in them.

And then of course all of the next 3 girls I had crushes on in middle school and high school were dating my friends... so yeah. All kinds of cuckold conditioning over here.

 

[Aedon12]

I think for me it comes from both my older sisters marrying black guys. My brothers in law would constantly pick on me make fun of my smaller dick

 

[leanncarter]

we started by wife cheating and getting pregnant

 

[Splashgirlx]

 

[Splashgirlx]

It started for me back when I was 12. I grew up in a very small town with a very small elementary school. My class had 10 girls and 2 boys, and the other boy was special ed. So in my mind by the sixth grade I thought I had a harem, and in their minds I was apparently just one of the gang who happened to have a penis.

A new girl moved into town and she was gorgeous and much more mature than the rest of us. She opened up a bunch of new feelings inside me, a lot of it lust. I became obsessed and she strung me along. Then she started dating a boy in the fifth grade and flaunting it in front of my face, forsing the two of us to hang out with her together. Him angry because I was the third wheel, and I was angry because he was there at all. She loved it.

And then I had to watch them make out for the first time and something broke in me.

She moved away at the end of that same year, but she remained the model for my ‘perfect girl’ since then. Cute redheaded bad girls who like to tease and have a cruel streak in them.

And then of course all of the next 3 girls I had crushes on in middle school and high school were dating my friends... so yeah. All kinds of cuckold conditioning over here.

Sorry

 

[spin419]

Some, I do think. Cheated on several times by my then-GF, now-wife during college years. I know I sexualized and eroticized it some after the revelation, but it was only one element of the fallout, just part of a big stew of reaction and emotion, plenty of it negative. Decades on however, it's really just a major turn-on that she did it. I guess if you really consider it though, what she did was cuckoldry. I don't know if I'd call myself a cuck now but I can say all that surely figures some in my wanting us to try a cuckold encounter together now. I suspect I'd like it a lot

 

[Splashgirlx]

Ok. I just want to say a couple of things. Firstly I have never teased a partner or boyfriend with another man. I think that's awful. But I have cheated, but always in secret, and I have stayed in a relationship longer than I should have knowing it was over but not being honest about it. But it does make me feel guilty and upset and not cruel or happy.

 

[Jamspliff]

Ok. I just want to say a couple of things. Firstly I have never teased a partner or boyfriend with another man. I think that's awful. But I have cheated, but always in secret, and I have stayed in a relationship longer than I should have knowing it was over but not being honest about it. But it does make me feel guilty and upset and not cruel or happy.

That's very sweet. And I'm not being ironic or condescending when I say it-I mean it. It's good that you are considerate of other people's feelings. If my first girlfriend way back in High School had been more like you, maybe I would feel differently.
However, just like some women are drawn to "bad boys" that won't treat them well, or are even physically and emotionally abusive jerks, some men are hopelessly infatuated with heartbreakers. There's a GREAT line in a song that puts it beautifully:
"I want you to break my heart like you were breaking down a door-throw me right into the fire"
That's the kind if woman some men are attracted to. But if you continue to be kind, considerate, and care about your partner's feelings that's fine-it increases the likelihood of having emotionally satisfying, drama-free relationships.
Nothing wrong with that!