allfulfilled
Male
I believe mine do.
Do your cuck desires stem from a past experience of being dumped for another man or cheated on?
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Oh definitely. My very first girlfriend cheated on me and rather than split with her, I was so fearful of friends or family finding out that she didn't enjoy sex with me, I not only let her cheat, but actually covered for her so she could sneak off without anybody of our friends finding out. I hated it at first, but the the embarrassment and humiliation is what I feared more than her fucking other guys...and that she may have fallen pregnant to them.
Funnily enough, to make myself feel better about it, i'd constantly get ******* and stay at home and masturbate...probably the worst thing I could have done.
Once my orgasms started to become much, MUCH more intense at the thought of her being fucked, that was the beginning of the end for me. It rewired my brain, I was hooked on habitually masturbating (5-6 times a day) to her opening her legs for other men, it changed my sexuality and where I saw myself on the sexual ladder. 30 years on, I'm still the same way and have never been able to shift the desire to be cuckolded.
Funnily enough, to make myself feel better about it, i'd constantly get ******* and stay at home and masturbate...probably the worst thing I could have done.
Once my orgasms started to become much, MUCH more intense at the thought of her being fucked, that was the beginning of the end for me. It rewired my brain, I was hooked on habitually masturbating (5-6 times a day) to her opening her legs for other men, it changed my sexuality and where I saw myself on the sexual ladder. 30 years on, I'm still the same way and have never been able to shift the desire to be cuckolded.
Thank you for sharing this. Have you ever tried to shift? And if so, what happened?
I have tried most of my life, as its either very hard to find a hotwife or sometimes even harder keep them, but I accept its how i'm wired, whether from circumstance or primal evolution. When i'm cucked, i'm much happier, centred within myself and I guess its because I'm living the true me.
I would love to have had a lot more sex with women in my life and a lot LOT less masturbation, but it is what it is. I accepted it a long time ago, plus when you are dealt with a small penis, it gives you somewhere to belong to and you are part of a tribe in a sense. Outside of being a willing cuckold, I think at times it would be a long, lonesome journey living life with a small cock.
paul28msingle
Male
I dated my highschool gf into college. I thought things were going great. One day I came home early and caught her cheating on me with a black friend of ours. It was hard for me. She was moaning so loud. She left me for him. I had no idea about cuckolding at the time.
And how long afterward did you start getting turned on by the idea of cuckolding? Did you ever try to learn more about their relationship, or fantasize about them specifically?
Several sources - but I was spending 6 months in a military school at Ft Knox and I started dating and sleeping with my next door neighbor. Her ex came to town and she asked me to not come over for the two weeks he was there. Saw them together outside several times and thought a lot about what they were doing inside.
I am assuming he was big and black? And is that what started you fantasizing about interracial cuckolding?
paul28msingle
Male
I was so confused. I was so turned on by it. I tried to get her back. I even went to the guys house in tears wanting to talk with him about it. he laughed at me. I jerked off constantly remembering the sounds that she was making that night.
paul28msingle
Male
He was huge. Shocking. I remember hearing the thrust so loudly too.
No he was not. I took a long road there. At work and the military i was always a leader then i discovered i was submissive. Saw a Domme for about two years who trained me and eventually started sharing me with her lovers. I moved again and started dating a gal who learned my kinks and started cuckolding me and sharing me with BBC#1. She moves and I start dating my current wife, with whom I had been platonic friends with on fetlife for several years. She had lived with two BBC (separately) for several years. I introduce her to BBC#1 who cuckolds me even before I've ever been allowed inside her, then she starts enjoying watching him make use of me. Prior to our marriage i was allowed inside her once (day I proposed). She dated BBC#2 & #3 and continues with a white guy with a bionic dick (literally a prosthetic pump). He was our best man and consummated the wedding. I was allowed in her for the second time several days after the wedding. We met BBC#4 on this site during the honeymoon. Since shortly after that, other than me she has only had BBC.
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paul28msingle
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I am searching for my future hotwife now 
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I did the same. Stupidly I would shower her with gifts to win her back, you name it, expensive heels, jewellery, perfume only for her to wear those very same items while fucked by someone else 6 weeks later. I did it so many times and spent so much money, it became like I was rewarding her for cheating on me.
She'd fuck around, once she got bored with them she tell me perhaps we can try again... i'd spend another $1000 on her and beg her to come back etc.
Within a couple of weeks i'd have to ask politely even for a handjob, then it would be lucky to go two more months before she'd go missing for 30 minutes at parties/ bbq's again and everyone pretending they didn't know where she was. Basically, I was already wearing huge cuckold horns and didn't even know it.
paul28msingle
Male
thats where i was. I really felt like it was all my fault. I still worry about falling in love again and losing her to the bull.
Yeah, thats always in the back of your mind. We have a really good friend who fucks my wife when they can, but he is divorced and was taken for evertything, so the life she has with me, is a lot nicer than the life she'd have with him. We live very comfortably, so I think that gives me a bit of a buffer from potential men stealing her, plus we've never argued in 11 years, so we just click, which is hard to find even without the sex.
paul28msingle
Male
sounds amazing!
Janus Marko
Male
It started for me back when I was 12. I grew up in a very small town with a very small elementary school. My class had 10 girls and 2 boys, and the other boy was special ed. So in my mind by the sixth grade I thought I had a harem, and in their minds I was apparently just one of the gang who happened to have a penis.
A new girl moved into town and she was gorgeous and much more mature than the rest of us. She opened up a bunch of new feelings inside me, a lot of it lust. I became obsessed and she strung me along. Then she started dating a boy in the fifth grade and flaunting it in front of my face, forsing the two of us to hang out with her together. Him angry because I was the third wheel, and I was angry because he was there at all. She loved it.
And then I had to watch them make out for the first time and something broke in me.
She moved away at the end of that same year, but she remained the model for my ‘perfect girl’ since then. Cute redheaded bad girls who like to tease and have a cruel streak in them.
And then of course all of the next 3 girls I had crushes on in middle school and high school were dating my friends... so yeah. All kinds of cuckold conditioning over here.
A new girl moved into town and she was gorgeous and much more mature than the rest of us. She opened up a bunch of new feelings inside me, a lot of it lust. I became obsessed and she strung me along. Then she started dating a boy in the fifth grade and flaunting it in front of my face, forsing the two of us to hang out with her together. Him angry because I was the third wheel, and I was angry because he was there at all. She loved it.
And then I had to watch them make out for the first time and something broke in me.
She moved away at the end of that same year, but she remained the model for my ‘perfect girl’ since then. Cute redheaded bad girls who like to tease and have a cruel streak in them.
And then of course all of the next 3 girls I had crushes on in middle school and high school were dating my friends... so yeah. All kinds of cuckold conditioning over here.
I think it's pretty likely, in my case. My first love-in high school-cheated on me multiple times. It was brutally hurtful and confusing to me that I still had the same feelings and desire for her, even when she was unfaithful. Dating her was like playing with a loose tooth-it hurt, but I didn't want to stop. Although she only cheated with other white guys, I had already began viewing-and preferring-BM/WF porn by that time. I think I naively thought if she was going to cheat it would be "safer" for it to be with a Black guy, as family pressure would have prevented her from openly dating outside of her race, so she would stay with me.
By the time I had began college I developed a strong fantasy infatuation with the idea of my fiancee sleeping with Black men. We broke up without me ever sharing this fantasy with her, but I was consumed with the idea of it, particularly given that she had a Black male roommate for over a year prior to our dating and engagement.
I've been married for a little over 13 years now and my wife knows about my interest in IR porn and IR cuckolding. We have VERY detailed Fantasy play with a Black dildo, but she is reluctant to move beyond Fantasy play into real life encounters. I think my early dating experience hard wired me to view what would make other men jealous as something else entirely.
By the time I had began college I developed a strong fantasy infatuation with the idea of my fiancee sleeping with Black men. We broke up without me ever sharing this fantasy with her, but I was consumed with the idea of it, particularly given that she had a Black male roommate for over a year prior to our dating and engagement.
I've been married for a little over 13 years now and my wife knows about my interest in IR porn and IR cuckolding. We have VERY detailed Fantasy play with a Black dildo, but she is reluctant to move beyond Fantasy play into real life encounters. I think my early dating experience hard wired me to view what would make other men jealous as something else entirely.
