Honestly I am both very nervous and excited about taking the next steps. For many years I have tried to be more dominant but each time that happened I ended being more and more submissive. It started rather innocently sometimes just jerking a soft cock in an adult arcade then a year or two later feeling hard cock and making them cum. It continued to sucking and swallowing where I felt it would end but met a few shemales and for the first time took hard cock in my boi pussy. Most recently began to enjoy sissygasms and stopped jerking off so my sissygasms would be more enjoyable. It seems like the next logical step is to meet a real powerful man that I am attracted to, and learn to please him. I am nervous because I feel there is no turning back but excited as the sexual intensity only seems to be getting better.