ive completely opened up to my wife about my interracial fantasies. she is confused and reluctant to entertain the idea. after showing her a small collection of interracial pictures that i put together, she seemed to be at a loss of words and slightly disgusted with me. she said she felt sorry for some of the girls (one gif in particular of a young white girl being gangbanged). i felt so stupid afterwards for showing her the pictures. she doesn't even like porn and here i am showing her a collection of some of the most hardcore ******* on the internet! granted, not all of the pictures were hardcore gangbangs. it was a mixture of softcore images like a sexy white women receiving a massage from a glistening, well-hung black man, and multiple pictures of white girls in awe at the sight of a huge black cock. either way, she was definitely shocked, confused, a little upset, and im sure a wide range of other emotions that i couldn't make out. we talked a lot that night after her initial shock wore off. she doesn't feel like she is enough for me and is worried that my sexual appetite is something that she cant keep up with. she loves our marriage and our sex life just the way it is and doesn't want to pull this thread. she's worried that it will take us down an unhealthy path and wishes i didnt think about things like this. i have expressed to her that i dont want this in real life which i think eased her mind a litlle and i also told her that the interracial gangbang is just a small, occasional fantasy that i have and its the most extreme. i dont think of anything past that. also, i let her no that she is at the center of all of my fantasies. i dont think about other girls. i dont want any other women. i think that eases her mind as well but she's still a little uncomfortable with whole thing. its been a few weeks since i shared all this with her and since then we've moved along with our lives and everything seems to be normal but there's still the underlying reality of my confession hanging over us. we haven't really discussed it any further. i told her that im going to keep these fantasies to myself because i know it makes her uncomfortable and thats the last thing i want. she's glad that i was open and honest with her tho and she knows that i love her with all my heart. i think she just wishes that i didnt have these thoughts..
side note:
we just had our 3 year wedding anniversary an we went to St. Augustine. we had a great time. one night we went to a small burrito shack. the line was supper long and we happened to be behind a group of three young athletic black guys. one the guys was extremely fit! it looked like he had twists or dreds and his shirt was off and he had on tight underarmer looking shorts. i know my wife was checking him out. lol she whispered to me "omg look at his butt. i jus want to pinch it!" and she pretended like she was about to punch his ass. he didnt notice but his friend saw her and quietly laughed. while she was pretending to pinch his butt she whispered again, "should i do it?" i tried to play it cool and said, "go for it baby. what are you gunna do when he turns around?" she jus giggled and said "idk." and put her hand down. my heart was pounding!!! also, another thing happened that i thought was instresting. like a week after we discussed my fantasy, she brought up some of her old boyfriends and said, "since you're into that whole black thing i think you'll get into this." and she started showing me pictures of some of her old boyfriends and guys she's hooked up with and she show me a picture of a mixed guy that she fucked in college. idk i just thought these were some notable incidents that happened after our talk.
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one more thing! she has also rekindled an old friendship with her best friend in college who started dating black guys while they were friends. she said they drifted apart once she started dating black guys. she said she starting changing and they didnt have the same interests anymore. my wife randomly texted her last week and apologized to her for not being a good friend to her when she started changing. i think they're going to meet for lunch this weekend. i told my wife that didnt mind if she talked to her about my fantasy. i kno she doesnt have anyone that she can talk to about this and i want her to have a girl friend that she can vent to and help her process everything that ive shared with her.
anyway, that's where im at.
any advice, criticism, guidance, or thoughts would be greatly appreciated.
thank you everyone!
