Though ive yet to experience cuckolding irl with my wife, we've discussed it at length and both still feel one day we will be ready to pull the trigger. One thing ive contemplated about my fixation with having another man, nevermind one whos sexual member is signoficantly larger than my own and of a different race is simply Why? And its not the obvious why like why a different race or size since thats easy, taboo mostly with a small % that i think every woman (who desires to that is) should get fucked by a huge cock. No the why i ponder is the details like ops question of wanting a guy to cum in your wife or wanting to watch her have rough sex with the bbc. For me its about control, complete control that i may have for a time but also dont have. Like it turns me on to think of a bull cumming in my wife but pqrt of that is because my wife said she probably would stop it but she still kind of wants to let it happen. Now I think of the moment where she stops the bull who wants to cum in her and he even tries to talk her into it but she stands firm so i step in and tell him its fine and my word is final so he unloads. I see her face and the many thoughts it reveals like a little bit surprise, questioning, pleasure of course, maybe even a tiny biy of anger for overriding her. Flip it and now i say no and now she overrides me and lets him cum in her and now i can feel so many emotions mixing, some directly opposed like pain and pleasure but its there. Pain of knowing abother man has filled my wifes pussy with his baby batter and unsure if she was still on the pill and pleasure of knowing how sexy slutty and surprising my wife is.
For me the whole bbc/interracial sex isnt about humiliation or alpha/beta stuff and more taboo and pushing sexual boundries. A little background for context but my wife and i have been together since we were 19 (now both are 40 yo) and neither of us have a ton of experience with other partners. However ive been with a few other women whereas i am the only sexual partner my wife ever had. I mention this because for me this has sort of become important to our sex life recently where im obsessed witb gettimg her laid specifically blacked. The whole taboo part is a turn on and guys lusting after my wife os hot. However i only realized recently another big reason for such a fantasy which for me is something i want, or even need, for my wife to have a slutty side. A part of her that will make me wonder if shes shopping or sucking a cock. However not behind my back ******* but up front and honest but a hunger in her that i can either help satiate by finding a bull or roll the dice and hope she tows the line.
Sorry for the ramble, Ive just been thinking about this whole lifestyle and the whys and hows and what ifs that come along with it. Thank god for the internet, sites like these and especually its members. Without a place like blacktowhite i would never have come to terms and have such an understanding of my interest in bbc and interracial cuckoldingm. Knowing theres others, many others in fact, who have a similar interest is priceless. Add in the advice and information found here and its allowed me to open up to my wife about a subject thats extremely hard to broach especially with your spouse.
