My addiction to watching my wife being creampied by my beautiful young black buddy was the result of my realising, even before he had fucked her bareback for his first time 6 years ago when he was barely 19, that with him being an irresistably attractive and strongly competitive rival for my wife's love and body and womb, his ejaculating into her signified his total possession of her for all Time.I’m hotwifing I’ve noticed that husbands want the bulls to cum inside their wives . This is the only scenario that bothers me so much with this whole lifestyle . I feel that if the husband wants another man to cum inside his wife, it means he doesn’t love her or care for her because there’s so many horrible Possibilities that could Happen . For example , what about pregnancy ? I’m fixed but my husband still managed to get me pregnant. What if a bull was able to also ? I think I’d ******* myself . Also diseases ?? Omg that increases higher chance even if they showed testing negative to all diseases , what if they still had one or caught a new one then was with me and I caught it ? I think I’d die ! And last but not least , the intimacy that cumming inside someone ?? I feel that when a man cums inside of a woman it is special and some kind of bond is created and he claims her for himself and she gives herself to him ! Am I nuts here ! Does anyone else have an issue with this ? Or is it just me ?
My sense of being utterly and permanently dispossessed of my wife---which his spunking into her for his first time conclusively and very evidently proved as against merely symbolized---was the most erotically explosive, wankworthy and addictive event of my entire sexual life, and remains so with escalating power to this day. I still masturbate ecstatically to my cruelly vivid memories of him spunking into her for his very first time, claiming her whole heart and body for himself.
Now that he has married her and fathered three children for her, the beautiful sexual highs I get from watching him powerfully creampie her beside me in the marriage bed are even more vitalizing and essential to my sense of being a man than is the fact that I have a cock and two balls and was once married to her.