Hello B2W,
I've read these stories and ads for a while but have decided to finally make an account and reach out to real people in hopes I find someone who's gone through what I'm going through. I'm a good looking, in shape, successful, charming white guy with a very above average dick (it's not BBC but I'm not complaining, I've seen a lot worse). Have always done great with the ladies and don't see myself ending that anytime soon but here's the kicker: I can't stop fantasizing about sucking huge black cock.
This all started years ago when I discovered BBC porn (Blacked is a particular favorite). The size was jaw dropping but what shocked me more was how it affected these white girls. It was almost like they were mesmerized by it. Like it became more than just sex. So of course this was a huge turn on but eventually, and I can't pinpoint when this happened, I started focusing on the black men more than the women. I would get off to videos of BBCs jerking off or even worse, fucking white men. There would always be an intense feeling of shame afterwards but I kept coming back. Tonight was the first time it entered the real world though. As I was changing at the gym tonight a ripped black male walked out of the shower and I couldn't stop catching myself from looking over my shoulder, hoping to see all of him. I had to ******* myself to splash cold water on my face. That had never happened before and honestly it really caught me off guard.
I have no interest in changing my sexuality. I love love love women and I'm not bragging here but do pretty well with them. I also have no interest in this ever becoming public, which would destroy my career and probably ostracize me to my friends. But I realize this infatuation is getting worse, so I needed to come here and get it all out, maybe find someone who's gone through it before.
To end, I'm an attractive, well off, athletic white male. I don't have a tiny dick, nor do I get off on being dressed up in lingerie or sissified. I love fucking women, and consider myself straight but these thoughts about worshipping superior black cock will not leave me. I could use some advice.
I've read these stories and ads for a while but have decided to finally make an account and reach out to real people in hopes I find someone who's gone through what I'm going through. I'm a good looking, in shape, successful, charming white guy with a very above average dick (it's not BBC but I'm not complaining, I've seen a lot worse). Have always done great with the ladies and don't see myself ending that anytime soon but here's the kicker: I can't stop fantasizing about sucking huge black cock.
This all started years ago when I discovered BBC porn (Blacked is a particular favorite). The size was jaw dropping but what shocked me more was how it affected these white girls. It was almost like they were mesmerized by it. Like it became more than just sex. So of course this was a huge turn on but eventually, and I can't pinpoint when this happened, I started focusing on the black men more than the women. I would get off to videos of BBCs jerking off or even worse, fucking white men. There would always be an intense feeling of shame afterwards but I kept coming back. Tonight was the first time it entered the real world though. As I was changing at the gym tonight a ripped black male walked out of the shower and I couldn't stop catching myself from looking over my shoulder, hoping to see all of him. I had to ******* myself to splash cold water on my face. That had never happened before and honestly it really caught me off guard.
I have no interest in changing my sexuality. I love love love women and I'm not bragging here but do pretty well with them. I also have no interest in this ever becoming public, which would destroy my career and probably ostracize me to my friends. But I realize this infatuation is getting worse, so I needed to come here and get it all out, maybe find someone who's gone through it before.
To end, I'm an attractive, well off, athletic white male. I don't have a tiny dick, nor do I get off on being dressed up in lingerie or sissified. I love fucking women, and consider myself straight but these thoughts about worshipping superior black cock will not leave me. I could use some advice.