I have been consuming pornography for over 25 years, since I was a teenager. At first, I started out with typical vanilla stuff and eventually, in my early twenties, branched out into more kinky stuff such as bdsm, trans, orgies, etc. Like a lot of people on this site, I was subconsciously drawn to big black men whether that was regular mf scenes, trans BBC, gangbangs, or milfs and gilfs fucking black men. Without realizing it, I focused more and more on the black guy’s penis rather than the woman he was having sex with. I eventually started watching gay black porn such as couples, orgies or solo jerk-offs when the mood struck me. I thought nothing of this, chalking it up to curiosity, until one day (this is now years later) I stumbled on a video titled “ Black Cock Addiction with Audio”. This video bluntly revealed to me that I was, in fact, addicted to watching and getting off to big black penises. At first, I was a bit shocked at how accurate the video was, it left me with a blunt realization about my sexual preferences: I was attracted to women but big black cocks as well.
Fast forward to today. For personal reasons, I have given up viewing pornography for several months now. I have noticed a change in my desires and how I view women both in personal and sexual settings, mainly, I am not as sexually charged as I was when I was consuming pornography on a regular basis. I have even come to enjoy and be aroused by the subtle, ultra-soft core pornography present in many movies and shows. Honestly, I don’t even miss watching porn anymore even though it was something I did pretty regularly for most of my adult life.
However, my urge for BBC exists and is as strong as it was when I watched BBC porn regularly. Since I don’t watch porn, when I masturbate, I strictly use my imagination. Sometimes I think of my wife, past lovers or other women. Having said that, nothing gets me off harder and faster than fantasizing about a big black man having his way with me or getting ganbanged and used by a group of black guys. These kinds of fantasies will get me off in no time. I even have two big black dildos, which I call my “boyfriends” that I sometimes suck and play with while I pleasure myself.
I also have the privilege of having a healthy sex life with my beautiful, blond, amazonian MILF wife. She is six feet tall, has long blond hair and I have heard through the grapevine to be the sexual desire of a few of our acquaintances. However, when I make love to her it is still black cock that dominates my mind. When I eat out her delicious pussy, I imagine I am eating out her black bulls cum after he has finished fucking or making love to her. This fantasy makes my cock rock hard while my tongue works on pleasuring her. When I enter her and have sex, I imagine the noises she makes are the result of her taking BBC while I watch from the side. When she grabs my ass, slips it or starts tickling my asshole, I imagine she is prepping me for a big black cock to enter it.
To summarize, even though I have given up pornography in general and have noticed changes I my psyche, my urge to be cucked and fucked by black men is as strong as ever. I don’t think I will ever lose the desire to serve BBC. I am in a monogamous relationship and if, hypothetically, I was ever given a pass and had to chose to be with someone other than my wife, it would not be another woman no matter how hot or beautiful, it would 100% be a big, hung black man.
Fast forward to today. For personal reasons, I have given up viewing pornography for several months now. I have noticed a change in my desires and how I view women both in personal and sexual settings, mainly, I am not as sexually charged as I was when I was consuming pornography on a regular basis. I have even come to enjoy and be aroused by the subtle, ultra-soft core pornography present in many movies and shows. Honestly, I don’t even miss watching porn anymore even though it was something I did pretty regularly for most of my adult life.
However, my urge for BBC exists and is as strong as it was when I watched BBC porn regularly. Since I don’t watch porn, when I masturbate, I strictly use my imagination. Sometimes I think of my wife, past lovers or other women. Having said that, nothing gets me off harder and faster than fantasizing about a big black man having his way with me or getting ganbanged and used by a group of black guys. These kinds of fantasies will get me off in no time. I even have two big black dildos, which I call my “boyfriends” that I sometimes suck and play with while I pleasure myself.
I also have the privilege of having a healthy sex life with my beautiful, blond, amazonian MILF wife. She is six feet tall, has long blond hair and I have heard through the grapevine to be the sexual desire of a few of our acquaintances. However, when I make love to her it is still black cock that dominates my mind. When I eat out her delicious pussy, I imagine I am eating out her black bulls cum after he has finished fucking or making love to her. This fantasy makes my cock rock hard while my tongue works on pleasuring her. When I enter her and have sex, I imagine the noises she makes are the result of her taking BBC while I watch from the side. When she grabs my ass, slips it or starts tickling my asshole, I imagine she is prepping me for a big black cock to enter it.
To summarize, even though I have given up pornography in general and have noticed changes I my psyche, my urge to be cucked and fucked by black men is as strong as ever. I don’t think I will ever lose the desire to serve BBC. I am in a monogamous relationship and if, hypothetically, I was ever given a pass and had to chose to be with someone other than my wife, it would not be another woman no matter how hot or beautiful, it would 100% be a big, hung black man.
