My husband says that his biggest problem with our new lifestyle is that he doesn't get to watch as often as I do it. He told me that he didn't think I would get so into it, that I would do it with our neighbors as often as I have. And he didn't think I would be as open as I have been to all three of our neighbors and their friends. My husband is salaried. So, he spends a lot of time at work. Our neighbors do me on their lunch hours and after they get home from work, pretty much every day, which I have been loving.
My husband also said he never expected these other men I would be having sex with would text in the middle of the night asking me to come over. And since they live right next door, I don't mind. I actually like that they want me in the middle of the night as often as they do. I don't think that my husband expected me to have feelings for my lovers, either. I don't have deep feelings for all of them, but the two I have been with the most I do have deeper feelings for. It can't be helped. They have made me feel wanted, needed, appreciated and loved.
I love my husband but, I don't think I have ever felt as connected to my husband as I do to the two, one especially, that I do now. There have been times when me and my husband have gone to bed and I have laid there hoping that our neighbors would call so that I could feel loved in a way that I need. And I get excited when I know that our neighbors are coming home for lunch . . . to have me! I have been at our neighbors a lot when my husband has come home. And he has learned recently that I do not spend as much time making sure dinner is ready when he gets home. It could be because all of this is still so new to both of us but, it has been more than both of us thought it could/would be.