I have some of the same thoughts.
Although, I do enjoy sucking cock, especially Black Cock, I have no interest in the other things associated with Gays.
I don't want any relationship, beyond friend (FWB). I don't want to kiss, hold hands, snuggle or anything associated with romance or love.
I am only interested in a man for the pleasure we can give each other. Me by sucking his cock to completion. That is a win-win as far I see it. Him by fucking my ass and Cumming in me. Another win-win.
If I had a wife/girlfriend that would make it even better and if there were several Black men FWB's it would be perfect.
Is it gay/homosexual/queer to suck a Black Mans Cock? Maybe, in some cases. But, Who really cares.
If you think I am Gay/Queer, I don't care. Names are only words.
I do think it is 'more gay' for a white man to suck white dick, than it is for a white man to suck Black Cock.
When I suck Black Cock, I have an extra joy of feeling as I am doing the Right thing, that I Should be providing sexual pleasure for Black Men and if I had a White Wife/Girlfriend/*******/etc. to offer Black Men I would be very happy.
May All white people serve the Black Cock!!!