I want to be his good girl so bad, help?

[andrewbnwo]

I have struggled with this desire for years but never acted on it. I don't know if I can handle it anymore and the fear of growing old without ever living this is scaring me. I didn't start out gay or trans but maybe I am now. I want to serve, obey, worship a strong black man as his girl. I need this so much. I think every day about surrendering myself, body and soul, to a black husband, a master that rules over me. To feel helpless before him, but protected from the world by him. I'm not into casual sex, I want an owner I can devote myself to as a good girl.

Is this just a stupid porn induced fantasy, or is it something that could be real? Is there any chance I could find a black husband like this, or am I just a dime a dozen white boy trying to get the attention of a super rare black guy that would like this?

I've browsed grindr but 99% of the guys are white, and then the black guys there are, based on what I've read... well, gay, they don't really want someone to play the female role for them, they want a boyfriend. I realize I am technically a boy but I have zero interest in penetrating them. I need to be accepted and wanted as the female. But going all the way into trans territory on my own, with pills and everything, that is extremely scary, I just can't do it alone.

Any way I can find someone to talk with for real about this?

 

[andrewbnwo]

Wish this could be me:

 

[subman]

Yes, Belle Delphine is my mental image of how a trans sissy should act. I would love to be a ****** sissy and look/act like her.

 

[Farkdude]

 

[ntl992]

I have struggled with this desire for years but never acted on it. I don't know if I can handle it anymore and the fear of growing old without ever living this is scaring me. I didn't start out gay or trans but maybe I am now. I want to serve, obey, worship a strong black man as his girl. I need this so much. I think every day about surrendering myself, body and soul, to a black husband, a master that rules over me. To feel helpless before him, but protected from the world by him. I'm not into casual sex, I want an owner I can devote myself to as a good girl.

Is this just a stupid porn induced fantasy, or is it something that could be real? Is there any chance I could find a black husband like this, or am I just a dime a dozen white boy trying to get the attention of a super rare black guy that would like this?

I've browsed grindr but 99% of the guys are white, and then the black guys there are, based on what I've read... well, gay, they don't really want someone to play the female role for them, they want a boyfriend. I realize I am technically a boy but I have zero interest in penetrating them. I need to be accepted and wanted as the female. But going all the way into trans territory on my own, with pills and everything, that is extremely scary, I just can't do it alone.

Any way I can find someone to talk with for real about this?

Hey there!!! Please view my post that I made about this! Check out my profile. I’d love to talk with you

 

[Farkdude]

 

[BeHardy4sho]

My advice is to try, and see how it goes. If it's not for you, then stop. But in my experience once you experience that first cock, you just seem to want more. I had a total feminine dress up day with a dominatrix once, and it didn't do anything for me, so I never did it again. But watching m wife's belly swell with a black man's baby is a total turn on.

Well depends on da dick too