How hard was it for you to find your place in the lifestyle?

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I was thinking the other day about how difficult it can be finding the correct partner/partners to live out this lifestyle to the full.

I woke up to my sexual shortcomings very early in life and started to accept that I was incredibly sexually inept compared to most males around me. I discovered femdom, cuck and interracial porn soon after and it all really clicked with me. By my early twenties I'd accepted my deeply submissive nature and came to relish it.

I'm 32 now and as a result I've stayed virgin and pussy free. Around 5 years ago I started exploring the idea of being a cuck but didn't have the courage to express it openly.

Fast forward to around a few years ago when I plucked up the courage to advertise myself as a cuck looking for a FLR online. I was contacted by a couple from not too far away from where I live in Wales in the UK. They were an older couple in their 50's who had retired early and asked whether I'd consider becoming a domestic servant for them. This wasn't something I'd considered before and wasn't sure what to think at first. They explained that they wanted a younger slave tending to the housework so they had more time to enjoy their retirement with each other. They said it would mean they could also spend more time planning meets with fellow kinksters if I was there keeping their house in order and looking after their pets while they were away.

After chatting to them for a a month I was completely sold on the idea. They were such a wonderfully charming couple. It was a role that fulfilled my desire to submit and serve like no other role I'd imagined up to that point.

They set out some ground rules, and the husband said he wanted me to remain a virgin for as long as I served them and that permanent chastity would be required, to which I agreed. He explained it would be a mostly non-sexual role and most of the time I'd be carrying out domestic services. He mentioned the potential for some kinky elements now and again, like a scheduled milking for health reasons, and perhaps giving his wife oral service once in a blue moon among a few other kinkier things.

They began clearing out a small box room and even put a mattress in there which would be where I would stay when not in use. They had a dog cage in there too, which they mentioned may be used for my training initially, and for punishments potentially.

About 6 months ago after a lot of planning, I was about to move in with them when they suddenly suffered a family tragedy. His wife was hit hard by it and I felt incredibly sorry for them. Needless to say I never got a chance to serve after, and I was extremely disappointed. It hit me pretty hard too. Something I'd wanted so long had been snatched away at the last moment and it made me extremely dejected to the point where I lost all interest in everything. It's only the last few months I've started getting some of my mojo back and started started proactively trying to fulfill my desire to serve again. I'm still looking and trying hard advertising online, but not had any luck yet unfortunately.

The one good thing that came from this is that I've discovered something I want more than anything.

Obviously a live-in servant/slave type role is at the more extreme end of the spectrum, but in your case, how hard did you find it to find your place within the lifestyle?
 
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I was thinking the other day about how difficult it can be finding the correct partner/partners to live out this lifestyle to the full.

As I've mentioned on here before, I woke up to my sexual inferiority very early in life and started to accept that I was incredibly sexually inferior to most males, especially black males very early on. I'm 32 now and as a result I've stayed virgin and pussy free. Around 5 years ago I started exploring the idea of being a cuck, but then I realised I don't seem to have what it takes to even compete as a cuck in an expanding ocean of cucks.

Fast forward to around 18 months ago when I started entertaining the idea of being a long-term live-in house slave/servant for the right woman or couple and advertising my services online. Initially I imagined myself as a slave to a black couple but then I was contacted by a white couple from not too far away from where I live in Wales in the UK. They were an older couple in their 50's who had retired early and liked the idea of a younger slave tending to the housework so they had more time to enjoy their retirement with each other. I found this proposition incredibly interesting and after chatting for a few weeks I also discovered they were very much into the interracial lifestyle too, and several times a year the husband would arrange meets with black guys for his wife. I hadn't considered it could be possible to play an indirect role in the interracial lifestyle by serving a white couple before, but now I could see it was, it helped broaden my horizons more. They said they could spend more time planning meets with black bulls, and even bringing them home from time to time if I was there keeping their house clean and tidy and looking after it while they were away.

To cut a long story short, I chatted to them for five months and we were so on the same page the topic of exchanging pictures never even arose, as what we had developed stretched beyond aesthetics I feel, which appealed to me even more, as I don't like online exposure or sending pics out into the world wide web. They set out some ground rules, and the husband said he wanted me to remain a virgin for as long as I served them and that permanent chastity was a non-negotiable condition, to which I nervously agreed. They began clearing out a small box room and even put a mattress in there which would be where I would stay when not in use. He did say I would be required to service his wife orally regularly to which I was more than happy to agree, and we also discussed lots of other kinky aspects to it which I won't go into now.

About 6 months ago after a lot of planning, I was about to move in with them when they suddenly suffered a family tragedy. His wife was hit hard by it and I felt incredibly sorry for them. Needless to say I never got a chance to serve after, and I was extremely disappointed. It hit me pretty hard too. Something I'd wanted so long had been snatched away at the last moment and it made me extremely dejected to the point where I lost all interest in everything. It's only the last few months I've started getting some of my libido back and rediscovered my desire to serve. I guess the one thing I learned was that it takes many months to plan and build trust, not to mention I learned that a live-in slave relationship is quite possible when all the logistics are planned and discussed thoroughly. So in conclusion if the experience taught me anything, it's that it is very possible, and that's got to be worth something. I'm still looking and trying hard, but not having any luck yet unfortunately.

Obviously a live-in servant/slave type role is at the more extreme end of the spectrum, but in your case, how hard did you find it to find your place within the lifestyle?

Sorry to hear how that ended, that must have been such a gut punch... I'm sorry man.

As far as some of the other, i've been kind of considering the same slave/servant part lately as a way to earn a place to enjoy this lifestyle, being single myself. Incredibly frustrating looking at everyone enjoying themselves and having nothing to offer, but that definitely does seem to be a good path to things if all else remains fruitless. Appreciate you sharing your story and giving me at least some affirmation that that might work out. Hope you keep at it and continue though, seems like it's rewards would completely justify the time you have spent. Keep your head up and look forward. Cheers
 
Sorry to hear how that ended, that must have been such a gut punch... I'm sorry man.

As far as some of the other, i've been kind of considering the same slave/servant part lately as a way to earn a place to enjoy this lifestyle, being single myself. Incredibly frustrating looking at everyone enjoying themselves and having nothing to offer, but that definitely does seem to be a good path to things if all else remains fruitless. Appreciate you sharing your story and giving me at least some affirmation that that might work out. Hope you keep at it and continue though, seems like it's rewards would completely justify the time you have spent. Keep your head up and look forward. Cheers
Thank you so much for your kind words of encouragement.
 
Love the story iam sissy bi and serve wife and her bull every whim. As a good cuck should now and again I get to clean them both and taste the juices .amazing I have sucked a black cock and been rammed hard in my sissy pussy want again asap
I envy you very much.
 
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