I adore my boyfriend; we're in our early 20's and have been together since middle school and I genuinely have no interest in cheating on him. Despite that I've got a blossoming interest in BBC and possibly swinging or some controlled cuckoldry. I'm not really sure what it is I want yet and I'm definitely not ready to tell him. Anyone have any advice on how I should move forward and explore my new interests in a controlled, safe way?