Why would I want to control it? I’m not embarrassed by it. It is hot AF.
I was having a negative reaction to a show on TV that showed two gay men making out. My wife wanted to push my buttons and tweak me a bit, “Well honey, you get really turned on when you see a picture of a big black cock, and you look at them a lot.” Frustrated me that I had to explain it to her again, and quickly she admitted to knowing the truth but wanting to take a shot at my regressive views and reactions when it comes to gay content (we have a ******* who is gay). But I made sure to fully explain to her why they turn me on, if she doesn’t like hearing my full explanation she should not poke the bear.
“Honey when I see a a black guy with a BBC I don’t think about touching, sucking, or in any way having it contact my person. I get turned on thinking of watching you see a big black cock like that for the first time after never having anything remotely that big. I picture you getting really turned on, you staring at it and imagining it fucking you. I think about your reaction if a BBC like that was being squeezed into your tight, wet, married little white pussy. I imagine the noises of pleasure and ******* as it enters you. Sounds I have never heard before. I picture you losing yourself in ******* as he is fucking you with a cock the likes of which you have never been close to having before. I picture you cumming harder, longer and more times than you have ever done before. I picture your cum bathing that BBC as he slides it in and out. Basically I picture you losing your fucking mind on a black man’s very large cock. It makes me crazy horny to entertain those thoughts. I’m a totally straight guy who has no problem explaining this kink of mine.” She usually gets bright red and tries hard to get me to stop explaining it. Oh well.