This is a complex but great question. I’m finding it difficult to pick an answer. Let me explain.
I’ve documented it before but for this question I’ll bring up again our cuckolding lifestyle was born from me not satisfying my wife due to rarely being home due to work. She had multiple sex driven affairs I was aware she was having. I liked her being pleased and enjoyed knowing before I broke it to her I knew.
When I watched my wife the first time I was fascinated with what I saw. I admit I shared an appreciation for the guys she was with. Within the first few times there was a change in me. Prior to, the thought of my wife not knowing I knew turned me on and drove me sexually. Pretty quickly it shifted to being driven by watching her in person getting fucked by black men. With that shift I found myself wishing I had a lot more to physically offer like them. I started paying a bit more attention to their form as they fucked her.
The switch flipped for me when my wife transitioned from passively submitting to her bulls and seeing me as neutral, to her taking a more active dominant role with me. I said I’d never do some of the things others, including our friends did in the lifestyle. Those things like cleaning her up and more specifically her becoming very verbal as far as where I was sexually to them turned me on that much more.
She then started talking of how she would like to see me with one of her bulls. Not coincidentally this is when I bailed out from the site for a couple months. I gave a blowjob to a bill of hers who is bi sexual and attempted to have sex with him although it didn’t go well. It was altogether confusing as I had no desire for a man unless I saw him with her. It’s still a bit hard to admit but I take an active sexual role with her and a couple of them who are inviting of it. It’s not all the time but with those guys it’s a lot of guiding, blowing, playing with their balls as they fuck her, licking their ass, and yes, occasionally letting them fuck me.
I guess the answer is cuckolding has led me to the desire. It’s not often and I don’t have a consistent desire or taste for it but it is there. More accurately it’s changed the role of my wife and I in sex as she prefers to peg me over me fucking her. I do think there’s a level of homosexuality with being cucked for some but not all. I think it’s all about the genesis of how the lifestyle became a thing for the couple.