## Teen years-
Let me start this both inspirational and slightly dark thread by saying that I have never been on a first date with a woman who didn't already know how many times I licked jizz off a woman's body. From finding the porn at 15 to having my asexual politeness be the route cause at 17 when I was a cameraman turned leg holder turned creampie eater. Then shortly after not really want to stop being a supportive third, hence finding craigslist and adult friend finder. My first personal ad( almost 13 years ago) seeking couples who wanted a helping third was titled "Sexually Support Caterer" By posting in every city within 5 hours of me. With a pretty young face, I had more couples wanting a supportive third than most college guys have to pick women to date. I sent emails apology emails every Friday with couples who didn't share my personal ideal version of servicing as a cuck. I had all the fun experiences and some bad after shame. Mid-relationship cuck couples have the privilege of after care. I cuck third is just an experiment to enhance another couple's love life. Many of these couples even invited me to birthdays and sporting events. So grew to want me as an equal third in the bedroom and I had to leave.
## From fetish to partnership-
I found Fetlife in 2008. When I was young and fet was only a few months old. I was the guy just looking to keep that fetish high. It was then I learned that cuckolding could actually be done in a real relationship. So I went to dating apps first. When I had some super mean things sound about me after when saying little of what I have done as cuck many just reported me. I found a woman shortly after turning 23 and after a few visits and some white lies to my family, I moved. The biggest decision of being with an already formed couple compared to a woman who just shares the same fetish is the consistency you have to be the cuck and the timing of her being turned on and you being tuned on never truly lines up .
## Consistency is the killer of curiosity-
We agree not to meet other men until after I moved. A month later we met our first bull. Up to that point, I was always the third. That and up to that point I only really ate pussy after someone cum in a woman but never on her. The first the bull pulled out to cum and I swear to god after one lick I wanted to go home and fuck women like a normal guy. It wasn't until she was super encouraging after it that I grabbed a water bottle I proceeded to "Cleanup" I did throw up in the restroom about 10 mins later very quietly so she couldn't hear. My first time sucking dick didn't go great either. But we met bulls 2-3 times a week. Now, after an almost 2-year relationship is a lot of cum to eat.
But your brain normalizes anything after time. Hell, even now I tell women at bars I'm into watching my girl with hung black dudes. I have gotten mixed reactions.
**But after close to a year the leg-holding, fuck-licking, body support, and even the cuck sucking felt like an average Friday night. Its great when you have a person who understands. Its total alienation when you don't**.Two more relationships that lasted more than a year have come and gone. I've moved a few more times just for the sake of being a cuck. Each time your new friends don't understand why you have to move. Each time you think that I'll just make new ones in the new place. I have only searched for and only have thought of m future as a cuck. Not a stag or a husband who shares his wife. I have gotten older and now look older than I once did. I still meet couples maybe 2-3 times a year to feed their need. I still go on tinder dates with younger women who have an interest in it. After she talks for 2 mins I know for sure she just wants to just explore.
## The aftermath of an entire adulthood as a supportive third-
I see younger happy couples at bars all the time. I wonder if I really wasted all of my 20's with the cuck obsession. I have never felt closer to a woman/person than I do when I am a cuck. Its as if I am at the mercy of someone who doesn't even know it. She could say so many things that would just ******* my self-esteem in the moment but accepts me as the supportive third. But with all the BNWO, cuckolding, findom and Twitter groups. More men than ever are so obsessed with the cuck stuff that one day years later it's just loneliness and memories that yourself is the only person to share them with. I talk to myself daily reliving cuckolding moments.
As someone pushing 31, I haven't had a regular relationship or regular as much as a college freshman would. The porn numbs you and the 8-10 women a month I talk to keeps the hope alive for a "death do us part" partner but at what cost. Is there even a real chance that all us wannabe cucks will ever find someone. Someone on here told me that 10 years ago. I wonder how it worked out for him.
Let me start this both inspirational and slightly dark thread by saying that I have never been on a first date with a woman who didn't already know how many times I licked jizz off a woman's body. From finding the porn at 15 to having my asexual politeness be the route cause at 17 when I was a cameraman turned leg holder turned creampie eater. Then shortly after not really want to stop being a supportive third, hence finding craigslist and adult friend finder. My first personal ad( almost 13 years ago) seeking couples who wanted a helping third was titled "Sexually Support Caterer" By posting in every city within 5 hours of me. With a pretty young face, I had more couples wanting a supportive third than most college guys have to pick women to date. I sent emails apology emails every Friday with couples who didn't share my personal ideal version of servicing as a cuck. I had all the fun experiences and some bad after shame. Mid-relationship cuck couples have the privilege of after care. I cuck third is just an experiment to enhance another couple's love life. Many of these couples even invited me to birthdays and sporting events. So grew to want me as an equal third in the bedroom and I had to leave.
## From fetish to partnership-
I found Fetlife in 2008. When I was young and fet was only a few months old. I was the guy just looking to keep that fetish high. It was then I learned that cuckolding could actually be done in a real relationship. So I went to dating apps first. When I had some super mean things sound about me after when saying little of what I have done as cuck many just reported me. I found a woman shortly after turning 23 and after a few visits and some white lies to my family, I moved. The biggest decision of being with an already formed couple compared to a woman who just shares the same fetish is the consistency you have to be the cuck and the timing of her being turned on and you being tuned on never truly lines up .
## Consistency is the killer of curiosity-
We agree not to meet other men until after I moved. A month later we met our first bull. Up to that point, I was always the third. That and up to that point I only really ate pussy after someone cum in a woman but never on her. The first the bull pulled out to cum and I swear to god after one lick I wanted to go home and fuck women like a normal guy. It wasn't until she was super encouraging after it that I grabbed a water bottle I proceeded to "Cleanup" I did throw up in the restroom about 10 mins later very quietly so she couldn't hear. My first time sucking dick didn't go great either. But we met bulls 2-3 times a week. Now, after an almost 2-year relationship is a lot of cum to eat.
But your brain normalizes anything after time. Hell, even now I tell women at bars I'm into watching my girl with hung black dudes. I have gotten mixed reactions.
**But after close to a year the leg-holding, fuck-licking, body support, and even the cuck sucking felt like an average Friday night. Its great when you have a person who understands. Its total alienation when you don't**.Two more relationships that lasted more than a year have come and gone. I've moved a few more times just for the sake of being a cuck. Each time your new friends don't understand why you have to move. Each time you think that I'll just make new ones in the new place. I have only searched for and only have thought of m future as a cuck. Not a stag or a husband who shares his wife. I have gotten older and now look older than I once did. I still meet couples maybe 2-3 times a year to feed their need. I still go on tinder dates with younger women who have an interest in it. After she talks for 2 mins I know for sure she just wants to just explore.
## The aftermath of an entire adulthood as a supportive third-
I see younger happy couples at bars all the time. I wonder if I really wasted all of my 20's with the cuck obsession. I have never felt closer to a woman/person than I do when I am a cuck. Its as if I am at the mercy of someone who doesn't even know it. She could say so many things that would just ******* my self-esteem in the moment but accepts me as the supportive third. But with all the BNWO, cuckolding, findom and Twitter groups. More men than ever are so obsessed with the cuck stuff that one day years later it's just loneliness and memories that yourself is the only person to share them with. I talk to myself daily reliving cuckolding moments.
As someone pushing 31, I haven't had a regular relationship or regular as much as a college freshman would. The porn numbs you and the 8-10 women a month I talk to keeps the hope alive for a "death do us part" partner but at what cost. Is there even a real chance that all us wannabe cucks will ever find someone. Someone on here told me that 10 years ago. I wonder how it worked out for him.
