My girlfriend and I have been together almost three years now and are very happy. She's 26 and I'm 25. A week or so ago we had an... interesting conversation. We were discussing new sex things we'd maybe like to try, bouncing ideas off one another and the like, and she asked if I'd ever like to watch another guy fuck her. I pretty much froze. She is very open about sex and sexuality whereas I tend to be a bit more reserved and shy, so talking about my desires is still a bit difficult. Usually I'm very open with her about what I like, she knows about my i-curiousity and other kinks, and while I've had cuckolding fantasies for quite a while, she didn't know that when she posed the question.
I mumbled something about it being something I was curious about, but I wasn't sure about acting on it just yet. And that was it, the conservation changed course and I was too nervous to bring it up again.
A few things: she has had several partners in the past, is vastly more sexually experienced and open than I am( she's my first and only sexual partner), and was previously in polyamorus relationships before me.
So right now I'm confused and anxious and excited and scared all at once. On one hand, I very definitely have submissive/cuckold fantasies; a lot. But fantasy and reality are two very different things and I'm not sure how I feel about it hypothetically happening for real. I love my girlfriend very much and I know she'd never do anything that would make me feel uncomfortable or unsafe. I guess I just don't know if this is going to go anywhere; before this my cuckold fantasies were just that and to find myself openly talking about it maybe happening is liberating, bizarre, and more than a little scary. I also don't know if it should go anywhere. As I said I'm pretty shy and nervous about most sex stuff, and this would be a lot to take in. I'm also having weird feelings of guilt that she used to be in sexually open relationships before me. It's all very confusing and I'd really appreciate any advice I can get!
I mumbled something about it being something I was curious about, but I wasn't sure about acting on it just yet. And that was it, the conservation changed course and I was too nervous to bring it up again.
A few things: she has had several partners in the past, is vastly more sexually experienced and open than I am( she's my first and only sexual partner), and was previously in polyamorus relationships before me.
So right now I'm confused and anxious and excited and scared all at once. On one hand, I very definitely have submissive/cuckold fantasies; a lot. But fantasy and reality are two very different things and I'm not sure how I feel about it hypothetically happening for real. I love my girlfriend very much and I know she'd never do anything that would make me feel uncomfortable or unsafe. I guess I just don't know if this is going to go anywhere; before this my cuckold fantasies were just that and to find myself openly talking about it maybe happening is liberating, bizarre, and more than a little scary. I also don't know if it should go anywhere. As I said I'm pretty shy and nervous about most sex stuff, and this would be a lot to take in. I'm also having weird feelings of guilt that she used to be in sexually open relationships before me. It's all very confusing and I'd really appreciate any advice I can get!