There is a very thick between cuckolding with a husbands consent and adultery, and frankly if you are seeing Jamal behind your husband's back (especially knowing he won't approve), you already crossed that line. Congrats, you are an adulteress and have earned your scarlet letter. When your husband finds out, he is likely going to take you to the cleaners in the divorce, if he can maintain his composure and not react violently. You opened the door to divorce through infidelity willingly, so you shouldn't expect your marriage to end well. The smart thing would be break up with Jamal, file for a divorce, and wait to see Jamal again until the divorce is finalized and the dust settles. You obviously do not love your husband since you cheated on him without recourse as to what he'd do if he finds out. You can lead a horse to water but you cannot make it ******* it. If a man doesn't want to be a cuckold, he won't be.
