So my wife was a virgin when we got together. She never masterbated by penetration, only clit stimulation and she even felt bad about that and rarely did it. She never watched porn, never even really dated, mainly because of a combination of her upbringing/culture. First time we had sex, she was on top of me kissing me and sat up and put me in in one thrust (remember, she this was her virgin pussy too) She was pushing down on my hips trying to get more in and she said “it doesn’t feel like you’re in all the way. It feels like it’s only the tip.” I told her I was all the way in and told her to grind. She did and I popped out, she put it back in and this happened several more times. I had her lean forward and began pounding away. There was no moaning, no heavy breathing, didn’t seem like it was doing it for her. Afterward I asked her how it was and she said “it was ok I guess”
After that whenever we’d have sex, I noticed she would jerk me off or give me head to start. When I got close to cumming, I’d tell her to slow down or stop so I didn’t cum, but she’d increase her intensity making me cum. Then I’d take care of her with my mouth and fingers. I noticed I was rarely in her and she always seemed to get off way more with my mouth/fingers. I asked her if she didn’t like when I was in her and she’d always tell me she did (even though body language said otherwise) Anyway, after a lot of assurance, I was able to let her know I wanted her to be honest so we could have the best sex life possible. She admitted that she would try to make me cum quick because she couldn’t really feel me and would get sexually frustrated since she was so horny and unable to get off, but she loved my fingers and mouth. I told her I was glad she was honest and would mainly only use my mouth and fingers from now on.
Eventually I asked if she wanted to try toys. She wasn’t sure but I assured her it would be a turn on for me as well. One day I bought a cyberskin penis sleeve. I went down on her and asked to be in her and she said she didn’t want me in her, she just needed to be ate out. I begged and told her I needed it this time and wouldn’t be in her long. She said ok and I got her really wet with my mouth and then slid myself into her with the sleeve on. It wasn’t huge or anything but definitely bigger than my penis. Her eyes opened wide and she began to actually moan. I pounded her and could tell she was loving it. She came for the first time ever from penetration. Afterwards she told me “oh my goodness, idk why, but you felt so much bigger today” I asked her if she liked it and she said she loved it. I showed her the sleeve and she was a little embarrassed but really turned on. Eventually we started using bigger and bigger toys, I noticed that she liked it the more she was stretched out. I started writing her exotic stories that she loved, eventually I included pictures I found off the internet to go with my stories. I made sure that it wasn’t too extreme or it would turn her off. She didn’t like the idea of gangbangs or facials etc, so I made sure I didn’t put those in it. I tried to find pics with Indian women (since she’s Indian) but those are a lot harder to find, so I’d use a lot of latinas since they had similar skin tones. I noticed that a couple of my stories where I had black guys in it with pics of black guys, she seemed to cum way harder. After asking she told me that she liked the size and skin color contrast more. I eventually moved from pics to gifs, she seemed to really really like the difference. But sometimes her conservative side would come out and she said she felt too dirty or bad looking at gifs. I eased off at times and made sure I got her super worked up before I’d show her the gifs. Eventually she got a lot more comfortable. Eventually we moved on to porn, she still is a little hesitant about watching it at times, but when she’s really horny or has a drin k or two, she really likes it. During all this time, I asked her about things she liked, I made sure to always give my assurance that I was okay with it. If she was feeling a lil shy, I’d give her things to think about, eventually she admitted that she really liked the idea of having sex with a big black cock. She wanted to really feel it and feel what it was like to have a big dick throb in her. Sometimes I think she was just saying that because she was horny, but sometimes I know for a fact if the opportunity was right in front of us at that exact moment, my wife would have taken a black man in her pussy that night.
I asked her if she really wanted to go through with it, most of the time she said yes, sometimes idk, sometimes I want to but I don’t think it’s a good idea. She’s told me all the things she’s worried about, getting pregnant, getting an std, her family finding out, her getting addicted, me being upset, us losing closeness. Eventually she gave me permission to find her someone. She said I had to find her someone because she didn’t want to flirt or have any kind of emotional ties. Although I liked that idea, I think that makes it harder because she isn’t going to be as invested nor as turned on. I started talking to a guy online. I shared her pics and he shared a few too. I showed her our messages and she was always turned on. We usually had great sex those nights. Then I told her I wanted to set up something for them. She said ok but when she saw the messages of us, she kind of freaked out and told me she didn’t want to do it and had a mini emotional breakdown and said she didn’t want to play with the black dildos anymore or watch porn anymore etc. I said ok and the next few times we had sex, I penetrated her and eventually she asked for one of her black dildos and admitted that she needed them and couldn’t get off without them. Eventually that got us back to the same point, even more so now. Sometimes she mentions things about black guys or big dicks when we aren’t even in the bedroom which I see as a positive step. She’s actually on her own told me that her biggest fantasy was to ******* with a lot of diff erent men with big cocks. The other day she sent me a meme saying “your sex life is named after the last movie you watched” we had just watched the movie “Big George Foreman” and she sent me laughing emojis and said how fitting that was. She’s told me when we have sex, she likes to imagine other men fucking her. She’s told me at times when she is at work or alone that sometimes she imagines getting fucked by a BBC. (BTW, at her work it’s all women, not one guy). She had one coworker who was talking to a black guy and her coworker told her he was huge. My wife came home super horny that day and I fucked her good. She never talks about our sex life with people but did tell her coworker that she wanted to live vicariously through her because I wasn’t as blessed. She said that it slipped out and she was kind of embarrassed. I mentioned maybe he’d have a friend that would like to fuck her. This turned my wife on a lot. But unfortunately it never went anywhere because her coworker stopped talking to the guy when he started asking for money for rent. And eventually she married a guy who was in his 70’s who had money and she quit her job.
She likes to watch porn where the girl is getting fucked in the same position she is in and she likes to imagine that it’s her. I’ve showed her a few cuckold videos and she REALLY likes them, especially when the wife compares the husband and bull. She prefers good quality videos but ones that don’t look like professional videos. Sometimes those are hard to find. Most true amateur stuff has terrible quality or is super hard to see anything in because it has terrible angles. She used to tell me she missed having me in her and would ask me to be in her once a month or so, but after being in her for 2 or 3 minutes she realized she needed more and would ask for her dildos. She told me that she doesn’t miss my penis anymore and is glad I’m okay with just being jerked off and using toys on her. She said it used to make her feel bad that she didn’t want me inside her, but now it makes her happy knowing I love her that much that I am ok with not having PIV sex.
I’d say we are the furthest along we’ve ever been minus the actually talking to someone. I just don’t know what the next step is to actually get her to go through with having a BBC fuck her.
