I wasn't trying to offend anybody by this thread, I am just trying to start a discussion about this which I think a lot of us whiteboys experience. I am not going to engage in conversation regarding the recent tragedy.
Speaking for myself I believe these feelings are routed in my racist upbringing. I don't mean racist in the way of doing harm to black people. I am talking about being taught that white people are better than black people. As I got older and interacted with them I soon learned that is not the case as it quickly became clear that black men are more often than not physically stronger than us whiteboys and I and my white friends were routinely dominated, bullied, and emasculated by the black guys. We could rarely stand up to them and as for me I harbored resentment toward black men for many years as I struggled with this realization. Also, I envied them because I perceived them as being bolder, more masculine, and better with the ladies. I agonized with this for many many years. I was in denial and couldn't acknowledge that black men are superior.
A gradual change was taking place within me though. I think the catalyst was seeing an increasing number of interracial couples. I hated this at first but after many years i started to get aroused by it. This was at a time when I knew nothing about cuckoldry. Well when I discovered Interracial porn that included sex, cuckoldry, and pregnancy I was on my path to begrudgingly accepting that black men are superior. Sex is the most intimate interaction between a man and a woman so to a whiteboy like me this was the ultimate humiliation and emasculation at the hands of black men. If you have noticed, I always refer to black men as superior black men/bulls/bosses/masters.
I have gone from being prejudiced toward black men to accepting them as my superiors. A lot of people post B.S. and think I'm full of it but I am quite serious about this. Some people take issue with me regarding black men as superior but it is how I see things. I try to immerse myself in this life because I believe it. I'm still intimidated by and feel generally less manly in the presence of black men. Call me a coward; call me a weakling. I accept it I encouraged past girlfriends and my ex-wife to take black lovers. I don't just talk the talk I walk the walk. I would like to engage with like-minded people on this site.
People have talked about reparations from tax revenue which is impossible. However, for my part I'm willing to offer a form of reparation. As I mentioned before I am a willing cuckold and would support my girlfriend/wife along with her black lover/bull/boyfriend/boss/master and the children they have together. The black man would come into my home and takeover; he would be in charge as I would work to support them and take care of the house. I would not be permitted to have sexual relations with her and would only be allowed some form of release only with the black man's permission. I was talking to a woman on this site for just such an arrangement who has already had children by black men and a current black boyfriend. But there were a lot of logistical issues in play.
This would be an arrangement of the man asserting his dominance and usurping from me the authority of a household. It would not be a sexual one as I don't have homosexual tendencies.
Claiming that black men are less intelligent than whiteboys is false. This perception comes from government policies that have kept black people in a stagnant socio-economic condition and a poor quality of education. There is an element in the government that seeks to keep black people from realizing their full potential, They promise them the moon to "keep them in line" particularly when it comes to voting. These elements are run by weak whiteboys who don't want to find out the meaning of those bumper stickers from several years ago: "Fear of a Black Planet." Because if black people realized their full potential, then I think we would see this gradual societal evolution sped up.
