I am a mid-forties married white guy. I stumbled upon my current lifestyle because I wasn't getting enough sex from my wife. I took to watching porn and jerking off at least 4 times a week. Prior to marriage, I may have jerked off once a month. I always had a nice, tight and wet pussy ready to fuck me, I had no need to jerk myself off. Now married and not getting it enough, and when I did, I have to admit, my wife's pussy left a lot to be desired. So did her blowjobs. I really felt trapped.
Porn was a release. I could watch girls give good head, and I could stroke myself, just how I enjoyed it. Everything was going okay. The thing though with porn, it's never enough. I had to chase it deeper and deeper. I found IR porn and loved it! Watching those white girls getting fucked so hard, their precious little white pussies opening up for that slab of black cock, it was amazing. I came so hard, everytime. Soon that led to cuckold porn, I imagined that the woman in the video was my wife. Soon I thought that maybe if she got fucked by a big black cock, it would open her up. I mentioned it to her and she unequivocally said no way..... I mentioned it a few more times over the next couple years, but still a hard no. All this time I was jerking off to cuckold porn daily now....
Eventually I started to wonder if I'd be able to get the same pleasure as the wome. In the videos, if I allowed those black men to use me. Wow! Sissy porn was found, then ******* porn. I spiraled into that hard. Before I knew it, I was putting posts on sites, asking for black men to let me suck their cocks. It worked, but I chickened out for at least the first half dozen guys (soory about that!!)
One day I ran across a reply from a guy who was calm and cool, in no rush. He made me make all the moves. After 20 or 30 emails back and forth and a month or so, we met up in public just to say hi. He called it a meet and greet. He seemed cool, we agreed to give it a shoot when schedules meshed. I was so nervous, but that sissy ******* porn kept mind on sucking black cock.
One afternoon, when I had the house to myself I emailed him, he replied quickly saying he was actually near by and would swing by in 10 minutes. Oh man, my stomach was in butterflies, but I pushed through, gave him my address, and awaited his arrival.....
Porn was a release. I could watch girls give good head, and I could stroke myself, just how I enjoyed it. Everything was going okay. The thing though with porn, it's never enough. I had to chase it deeper and deeper. I found IR porn and loved it! Watching those white girls getting fucked so hard, their precious little white pussies opening up for that slab of black cock, it was amazing. I came so hard, everytime. Soon that led to cuckold porn, I imagined that the woman in the video was my wife. Soon I thought that maybe if she got fucked by a big black cock, it would open her up. I mentioned it to her and she unequivocally said no way..... I mentioned it a few more times over the next couple years, but still a hard no. All this time I was jerking off to cuckold porn daily now....
Eventually I started to wonder if I'd be able to get the same pleasure as the wome. In the videos, if I allowed those black men to use me. Wow! Sissy porn was found, then ******* porn. I spiraled into that hard. Before I knew it, I was putting posts on sites, asking for black men to let me suck their cocks. It worked, but I chickened out for at least the first half dozen guys (soory about that!!)
One day I ran across a reply from a guy who was calm and cool, in no rush. He made me make all the moves. After 20 or 30 emails back and forth and a month or so, we met up in public just to say hi. He called it a meet and greet. He seemed cool, we agreed to give it a shoot when schedules meshed. I was so nervous, but that sissy ******* porn kept mind on sucking black cock.
One afternoon, when I had the house to myself I emailed him, he replied quickly saying he was actually near by and would swing by in 10 minutes. Oh man, my stomach was in butterflies, but I pushed through, gave him my address, and awaited his arrival.....
