Can't just be me? I think it's what I want to see, I've spent the last couple of years fantasising, planning in my head, dropping hints.....last night while we were fucking she asked me whether I really wanted to watch her fuck another man (I was in contact with someone who turned out to be fake, I had showed her the pics of his huge dick though and said he wanted to fuck her). She said she doesn't want to ruin what we have, and neither do I. It will obviously be different afterwards, is it worth this funny feeling I now have as its turning from fantasy to reality?
It's not just you my friend. My wife and I have discussed this seriously off and on for several years but have yet to pursue it. The reason we never went for it was because our youngest still lived at home and we could not risk this getting out. Last month he finally moved out, after securing his education and career, so we now have the privacy we need.
My anxiety level has gone up a bit since then because I'm gradually coming to grips this all could happen. The other day I told my wife I was going to refinish the kitchen cabinets like she asked and she jokingly said she would pay me. I was passing by her as she said this and said I'd rather you pay me with
something else instead of money and before I finished she looked me dead in the eyes and said
yes.
When she did that my stomach turned a flip because when I talk like
that to her it's about black men and since I hadn't mentioned it in awhile I was not expecting such an enthusiastic and immediate response. We both promised once our ******* moved out we would get serious about
us and this fantasy so my guess was she was waiting on me to bring it up which I suck at, I'm good once I do but nervous a hell when I initiate it. I think my inhibitions is one of the reasons she is drawn to black men.
Anyway, tonight she came home late after getting off work and when I asked where she had been she said shopping. She produced this bag which contained about a dozen panties and these were not her "normal" panties. The panties she pulled out were lacy and barely there, with boy short, vkini and side tie. I said you
never wear these and she nonchalantly said, I was thinking of you the entire time I was buying these and what you said to me the other day about paying you.
I'm not dealing in hyperbole when I write this, after I first brought up the topic of her taking a black man as a lover every sexual moment between us since then involves her making love to a well hung black guy, we both are acutely aware of this and it is a part of us as a couple. The
only reason she would be buying panties like this is she may be thinking of me but she anticipates wearing them for someone else and my nerves are on edge wondering what is next.
She worked with this black guy at one time who she said would be "perfect" for us and I would get it once I saw him. She describes him as tall and muscular and says he had this thing for her which she never mentioned until I brought this up and says she had fantasized a time or two about him. I am thinking we might be looking him up and I am nervous as hell, I asked if she thought he was
well endowed and she said "oh yeah."
She reminded me they had a day once every week where they get to wear jeans and said his jeans were tight enough she could see "him." She said because he escorted her around the casino she had a front row seat whenever they stopped at a slot machine. She said she could not help but notice he was "large" the very first time she saw him in jeans and said it was hard not to look. My wife is not the type to bloviate about such things so if she was moved by what she saw then he has to be hung. She told me at times, when he wasn't looking, she would glance at him and said he was thick and he was impressive. I asked if she ever got aroused and she admitted on several occasions it happened.
Am I nervous? HELL YES I AM!!!!
