My number one fantasy (and it’s not even close), is to watch my wife insanely pleasured by a well hung black man. There are a number of factors driving this fantasy but compersion (getting pleasure/satisfaction from the joy of another), is an absolute requirement for sure. Once in couples counseling our therapist asked if I would still be turned on by the fantasy if my wife wasn’t enjoying the experience. Before I could reply my wife responded, “of course he would still be turned on.” But I replied, “actually if she wasn’t enjoying the experience that would be probably the worst thing I can imagine. My whole fantasy is based on her really, really enjoying the sex. If she wasn’t that would be awful.”
My question: is there any reading of the Bible, or views on Christianity at large, where being a cuckold and realizing this fantasy in real life, are compatible and not a sin and against God’s will? I’m not a very religious person but in a 12 step program and wondering if this fantasy is on one side, and Gods will is invariably on the other?
Is wanting them to be aligned just me being selfish/willful?
My question: is there any reading of the Bible, or views on Christianity at large, where being a cuckold and realizing this fantasy in real life, are compatible and not a sin and against God’s will? I’m not a very religious person but in a 12 step program and wondering if this fantasy is on one side, and Gods will is invariably on the other?
Is wanting them to be aligned just me being selfish/willful?