1WhiteBoi4BBC
Male
You sound like you are very smart and wise, we have had very different experiences, and at your age, I can understand that your world view is cemented as it is, and it would probably take a lot to change it. All I know is what I have seen, and what I have seen is crystal clear to me! As far as bi-sexuallity is concerned, all I can say about that is that I had never in my life been sexually attracted to ANY guy before, not even a little, and then... I got BLACKED, and I changed drastically! Aside from the ONE time I had sex with a girl, I have ONLY had sex with BLACK MEN, and I ONLY want to have sex with BLACK MEN! I still find women pretty and beautiful, but I know that even if I can get them to sleep with me, it will be like before... awkward lesbian sex, that will be sure to disappoint us both.
Yet, I know that if I had NEVER been BLACKED... I'm sure I would have been happy with it! I would have just thought that was what sex is like. I would have lived my life as a regular straight guy, and since I wouldn't know better, I would have been well satisfied with it. I mean it still felt good, she told me that she liked it, but... for me, it felt so G-Rated and so... not particularly AMAZING... like getting my white ass BLACKED WAS!!! I know that I could NEVER in a million years do to ANY woman what BLACK MEN do to me... Each and EVERY TIME!!! The intensity, the power, the savagery, the intensity, the raw primal animalism, the screaming, the whimpering, the moaning, the crippling *******, the mid-blowing explosive orgasms, the feeling of being truly LUSTED after! That they simply MUST love you!!! I'm sorry, but a woman just can't ever want you quite like THAT!!! I cannot do to her what a BLACK MAN can do to me! I am far closer to being like HER then ever being like HIM!!! There is nothing like a BLACK MAN! And, there is just NOTHING like having sex with a BLACK MAN... as a woman! And, once you have... NOTHING else will do! Hence, that old saying... once you go BLACK... you really just can't go back!!!
I found the same thing was true for lots of other white boys! About the only way Jamal ever let me go to class is if I promised to help him hunt other white boys! It was a fun game to him, he LOVED it!!! So I helped him! I generally did whatever he told me to! Eventually, I even got into it too! I helped him turn-out three white boys before he got arrested. He would just pick a white boy he thought was "pretty," and I would befriend them, introduce the to Jamal, actually... with one white boy I even transferred into his class to get him comfortable with me. Jamal would do to them what he did to me, and I would help him keep track of them, and minimalize his behaviors, and put them at ease, Jamal and I would coordinate text messages, he was like the bad cop, I was the good cop, and the plan was ALWAYS to get them over to what I told them was MY house, when REALLY it was HIS apartment! Once they were there he would pounce on them, once their pale white flesh was in his clutches it was OVER for them! They ALL got BLACKED RAW... Savagely, and afterwards, just like me... they started becoming incredibly feminine, one of them is actually a transgender woman now! They weren't all submissive either, two of them were Alpha like, and were quite spunky, but they still got BLACKED, and afterwards they got REAL girly! They were all regular, normal, straight, white boys that were typical attractive college white boys, and didn't know my relationship with Jamal, until after! They are as far as I know still exclusively have sex with BLACK MEN!
After Jamal would thoroughly BLACK them, a couple months after the honeymoon period, he would introduce them to other BLACK MEN, and they would typically move in with them, and be their devoted little lilly white whores! I was never jealous either, Jamal was still giving me all the sex my little white body could handle and more!!! I welcomed the reprieve of white girls and the boys to help me with him! He was insaitable!!!
As far as the love between a MAN and a WOMAN, I can honestly tell you that I LOVED him like a woman loves a man!!! I wanted to be his wife, and I would have LOVED to be able to to get pregnant, and carry his babbies in my belly! I would give ANYTHING to be the mom of his children! I cooked for him, I cleaned for him, I did his laundry, I did whatever he wanted me to do! Sometimes, he would tell me to do extreme things just to test me, but I ALWAYS did it, my devotion to him was absolute! He once asked me if there was anything I wouldn't do for him, and I told him I would even let him ******* me if he wanted, I would do it myself if he wanted! I LOVED have! I went to see him EVERY SINGLE DAY after he was arrested! I put every last dime I had to put it into his commissary! I cried a river of tears for him every night! I even tried to get my parents to pay for an attorney! They were NOT having it, and my ******* is not speaking to me anymore, after he found out about what I had been doing with him, and how I am with BLACK MEN in general! My mom was born in Sweden, and was pretty shocked and upset, but Europeans tend to be more open minded, and I still speak to her once or twice a week.
After a couple of weeks, Jamal told me that he didn't want me to come see him anymore. He knew that in all likelihood, he was going to to be spending the rest of his life in prison, and told me that I needed to move on! And, I still came to see him! The last three times I came to see him, he refused to see me, and was later transferred very far away! I sat and cried my eyes out when he refused to see me, and one of the black guards that worked there felt sorry for me. He was nice to me, and he knew what my relationship was with Jamal. After the last time I went to see Jamal, being stood up a third time, the guard convinced me to respect Jamal's wishes, and came on to me. He was tall, muscular, very dark skinned, he talked to me real nice, and he wanted to FUCK ME... I was vulnerable, and he was BLACK! I was very attracted to him, and even though he was married... I let him take me to a hotel, and I let him FUCK my brains out!!! I denied him absolutely NOTHING!!! He was AMAZING, and his rock HARD... BIG BLACK COCK was even more AMAZING!!! It was different with him then it was with Jamal, but just as good!!! Maybe even better... since he was somebody new! I had only been with Jamal before, and there was something very exciting about taking my second BIG BLACK COCK!!! I FUCKING LOVED IT!!! He really enjoyed being rough with me, pulling my hair, ******* me, and ass smacking me really HARD, and he FUCKED me even HARDER!!! I FUCKING LOVED IT!!! It wasn't as intimate as it was with Jamal, and I soon realized that this man neither respected me at all... or loved me! But, I was addicted to the sex, and I ALWAYS gave it up to him whenever he called! After a while, he had other BIG BLACK MEN join us at the hotel, most were black guards he worked with that thought I was cute, and wanted to brutally gang bang a little white boy, one was his brother, and a couple of times his uncle joined in too! They were FUCKING ******* with me, I was sometimes getting BLACKED by eight BLACK MEN gang banging me at a time! Sure, I felt like a whore, but that is/was exactly what I was/am!!! All those BIG BLACK MEN... with ALL their BIG BLACK COCKS ALL lusting after ME was intoxicating!!! I loved every minute of it!!! Even though... sometimes I couldn't walk for DAYS afterwards!!! They also were obsessed with inseminating me, and cumming all over me! Then, I got a really bad crush on one of the BLACK MEN, he was a guard, and he wanted me to move in with him, and didn't want me getting BLACK gang banged anymore, so I stopped.
He asked me to get tested for STD's since I had been having a LOT of unprotected sex with a LOT of BLACK MEN, and I was clean, so then he basically made me his stay at home wife, and bred me every night! He really liked inseminating me, and I loved it TOO! Unlike the others, he was very intimate with me, and I was beginning to fall in love with him. I felt conflicted about falling in with another man. So, I began writing Jamal, I went through a lot of work to find out where he was, and wrote him many letters. He NEVER wrote me back, and when my new man found out... he became EXTREMELY angry with me, and made me promise not to do it again. I promised him, and I tried to obey him, I really did... but, I couldn't help myself, and I wrote him ONE more letter, and he finally wrote me back with just one page, and ONE word that just said... STOP!
I kept it stashed away in my purse, and when my new man found it... he beat me up a little, and threw me out! I massively regreted it, I tried for weeks to apologise and explain, but couldn't mend it with him, which was tragic because I was really falling for him!
Since then, I haven't had any real intimate relationships, I find that a LOT of BLACK MEN want sex, and are eager to fuck white boys, but very few want relationships with us. They are straight MEN, and will likely only settle down with a biological woman. But, who knows what the future holds!?
I conspired to get my Nephew get BLACKED RAW, and was successful! He was a totally straight, sweet boy, and now he's just like me! I don't reget what I did, and he doesn't either, our relationship dramatically improved afterwards, and we're more like sisters now. He's eighteen now, and is in love with a 36 year old ex-con grocery store bagger, and I am actually extremely jealous! I hope I will get lucky in love again, but right now I'm happy just getting "lucky" with BLACK COCK a couple of times a week.
I respect your perspective, but I am convinced about white feminity! We will have to agree to disagree about it!
